I just had one of the most lonely thanksgiving’s in my life it seemed. My mom is ill with cancer and she’s growing weaker and weaker, my dad is a drunk. I broke up with my ex this spring and I’m unemployed. I felt like crap yesterday, frustrated, angry and alone.
figured I got 3 more years of school and I’m just having a hard time today to come to terms with what happened over the last year. My life was decent before, I had my own house, business and girlfriend. Now I’m by myself, I’m sad.
On the the bright side I did get removed from a horrible business partner and a crappy relationship with my ex for six years. Plus a house I couldn’t afford. A recent MRI that was clear with no activity and confirmation that tecfidera (my first treatment) is doing its job. I’m relatively healthy with invisible/insignificant minimal sx present.
But I’m 37 and live with my parents (mom is ill so it’s nice to be around at least) I’m am very lonely and can’t find a new girlfriend yet.
all this happened for a reason I truly believe, I just need to focus on school and my workouts/health and just stay positive... I know I try. But I had a bad day processing wat happened over the last year and saying goodbye to the life I had.
I do have lots to be thankful for I suppose but I’m still struggling some days to see the big picture,
a decent part time job will do wonders cause my funds will dwindle next year. Oh ya and a girlfriend would be nice too lol
just had to release my feelings a little that’s all.
keep moving forward I guess.
figured I got 3 more years of school and I’m just having a hard time today to come to terms with what happened over the last year. My life was decent before, I had my own house, business and girlfriend. Now I’m by myself, I’m sad.
On the the bright side I did get removed from a horrible business partner and a crappy relationship with my ex for six years. Plus a house I couldn’t afford. A recent MRI that was clear with no activity and confirmation that tecfidera (my first treatment) is doing its job. I’m relatively healthy with invisible/insignificant minimal sx present.
But I’m 37 and live with my parents (mom is ill so it’s nice to be around at least) I’m am very lonely and can’t find a new girlfriend yet.
all this happened for a reason I truly believe, I just need to focus on school and my workouts/health and just stay positive... I know I try. But I had a bad day processing wat happened over the last year and saying goodbye to the life I had.
I do have lots to be thankful for I suppose but I’m still struggling some days to see the big picture,
a decent part time job will do wonders cause my funds will dwindle next year. Oh ya and a girlfriend would be nice too lol
just had to release my feelings a little that’s all.
keep moving forward I guess.
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