A different take.....
First, I want to empathize--your lot is unfair, and difficult. Next, and most importantly, I have a different response than everybody else here. I agree with it all. HOWEVER, that being said, you are in the situation you are in. You said everyone says you are nasty and miserable to be around, and that you think that's not so, you are just sick of your misfortune. Well, this may be hard to hear, and there is nothing fair about it at all, but MAYBE you are being difficult? I am not saying you don't have the right, or you are unfairly difficult, but at this rate, you are right--there is nothing to be happy about. What can YOU do to change this? Someone recommended your son go to counseling. Not a bad idea, but you sound so unhappy, I think you could benefit from counseling. Sometimes we have beliefs that handicap us, and assure our constant misery, and we aren't even aware of it.
Your son is 17. He's "supposed" to be somewhat difficult and miserable. It's his job. And he didn't ask for his mom to have MS any more than you asked to have it.
And your little one: you love to see her eyes sparkle. A happier mom would make her eyes sparkle more than Christmas decorations would.
You can't change your MS. You can't change that you have a teen son. (I have a 17 yr old son too....not fun much of the time.). BUT you can change your outlook, even just a little. Cognitive behavioral therapy looks at your beliefs, and how you think and feel, and how they are related. Look up a therapist at the Assoc for Behavioral Cogntive Therapy, abct.com (or is it www.abct.org?) Give it a try. Just go twice.
Also, I find when I am super nice to my 17 yr old, or just ignore him when he is rotten, and stay away from him, that his behavior reverberates more, and he is more able to see how he is behaving. When I am a ***** back to him, it just makes him go further down that lousy teen road.
Lastly, hang in there. Look for the bright side. There is usually one....
First, I want to empathize--your lot is unfair, and difficult. Next, and most importantly, I have a different response than everybody else here. I agree with it all. HOWEVER, that being said, you are in the situation you are in. You said everyone says you are nasty and miserable to be around, and that you think that's not so, you are just sick of your misfortune. Well, this may be hard to hear, and there is nothing fair about it at all, but MAYBE you are being difficult? I am not saying you don't have the right, or you are unfairly difficult, but at this rate, you are right--there is nothing to be happy about. What can YOU do to change this? Someone recommended your son go to counseling. Not a bad idea, but you sound so unhappy, I think you could benefit from counseling. Sometimes we have beliefs that handicap us, and assure our constant misery, and we aren't even aware of it.
Your son is 17. He's "supposed" to be somewhat difficult and miserable. It's his job. And he didn't ask for his mom to have MS any more than you asked to have it.
And your little one: you love to see her eyes sparkle. A happier mom would make her eyes sparkle more than Christmas decorations would.
You can't change your MS. You can't change that you have a teen son. (I have a 17 yr old son too....not fun much of the time.). BUT you can change your outlook, even just a little. Cognitive behavioral therapy looks at your beliefs, and how you think and feel, and how they are related. Look up a therapist at the Assoc for Behavioral Cogntive Therapy, abct.com (or is it www.abct.org?) Give it a try. Just go twice.
Also, I find when I am super nice to my 17 yr old, or just ignore him when he is rotten, and stay away from him, that his behavior reverberates more, and he is more able to see how he is behaving. When I am a ***** back to him, it just makes him go further down that lousy teen road.
Lastly, hang in there. Look for the bright side. There is usually one....
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