I posted this on cafemoms yesterday and got no relply except from one women who offered a hug. I don't think many knew what to tell me. But I need to vent. I need to know someone hears me and can somewhat relate.
I am a teachers aide. I have been with the district going on 17 yrs. After going to work for the school, I was dx'd with MS. I am still several years away from retirement and I don't make a living as it is now. But I need the insurance.
I love my job. I work with kids with special needs and I really do enjoy them. I do have my days but its not usually the kids. I have been going through alot of stress at home. I have a 24 yr old daughter who is seperated with three kids. She moved back in with us in Oct and finally got into her own place last month. She has put us thru hell. But she knew we would not put her out with three babies. I have told her that she can't come back. She has got to make this work on her own.
We have a new person in our department at work who I have always liked. I really thought she was a good honest person. She sends emails to our principal behind our backs and there have been things that have gotten back to me as well as others. We have had a couple teachers threaten to quit over her. As for me...I am just an aide. I can't just quit, I need insurance. I don't have the wits about me to go back to school. I can't even organize a thought somedays much less retain enough to become a teacher. I know this is my last job. I'd like to keep it as long as I can. But I don't know how much more of the politics I can take.
I've worked under several principals and have always gotten along with them. I have always felt comfortable going to them for anything. The one we have now, not so much. She doesn't even acknowledge me in the halss when the halls are empty and I know she sees me. I have tried to talk to her in the past it falls on deaf ears.
I don't want to be angry this school year. I don't want to be miserable and watching my back. The students have not even come back yet and the pressure is on already.
I lost my cell phone at the airport and it has not been found yet. AT&T is sending me a replacement. In the meantime, the teacher that I have the issues with has called the principal and told her I am not taking her phone calls, that I just won't answer the phone. So I get an email about not taking her phone calls. Ugh, it's things like this that stress me and we haven't even gotten started.
I am sorry this is so long. I am going crazy in my mind. But I need insurance. No one has real answers so I just wanted to vent. Thanks for taking the time to read this.
PatienceS
I am a teachers aide. I have been with the district going on 17 yrs. After going to work for the school, I was dx'd with MS. I am still several years away from retirement and I don't make a living as it is now. But I need the insurance.
I love my job. I work with kids with special needs and I really do enjoy them. I do have my days but its not usually the kids. I have been going through alot of stress at home. I have a 24 yr old daughter who is seperated with three kids. She moved back in with us in Oct and finally got into her own place last month. She has put us thru hell. But she knew we would not put her out with three babies. I have told her that she can't come back. She has got to make this work on her own.
We have a new person in our department at work who I have always liked. I really thought she was a good honest person. She sends emails to our principal behind our backs and there have been things that have gotten back to me as well as others. We have had a couple teachers threaten to quit over her. As for me...I am just an aide. I can't just quit, I need insurance. I don't have the wits about me to go back to school. I can't even organize a thought somedays much less retain enough to become a teacher. I know this is my last job. I'd like to keep it as long as I can. But I don't know how much more of the politics I can take.
I've worked under several principals and have always gotten along with them. I have always felt comfortable going to them for anything. The one we have now, not so much. She doesn't even acknowledge me in the halss when the halls are empty and I know she sees me. I have tried to talk to her in the past it falls on deaf ears.
I don't want to be angry this school year. I don't want to be miserable and watching my back. The students have not even come back yet and the pressure is on already.
I lost my cell phone at the airport and it has not been found yet. AT&T is sending me a replacement. In the meantime, the teacher that I have the issues with has called the principal and told her I am not taking her phone calls, that I just won't answer the phone. So I get an email about not taking her phone calls. Ugh, it's things like this that stress me and we haven't even gotten started.
I am sorry this is so long. I am going crazy in my mind. But I need insurance. No one has real answers so I just wanted to vent. Thanks for taking the time to read this.
PatienceS
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