Please Help !!!
My marriage is falling apart. We were married in 2009 with him knowing I might possibly have MS, but that the docs said I was ok. Even now my dx. is probable, never confirmed. I have all the full-blown symptoms each and every single day in and out.
Twice in the last few weeks my husband says the MS is destroying the marriage. I try not to talk about the MS or say anything if I hurt or complain.
I can't hide the weakness in my steps I take, or the pause have to make when I stand up to let the spasity pass or the burning pain leave that shoots through me. It shows on my face. The doctor won't prescribe meds that work. They all make me too loopy or feel weaker so I endure.
He got mad at me after he had been drinking. It seems like lately its a habit he started partaking in. When we got married in 2009 he didn't drink. I didn't have a clue.
In Jan. this year all of a sudden I started hemorrhaging, requiring emergency surgery and hysterectomy. I was exercising within the week as ordered by the doctor. My husband seemed to always feel like I needed to be doing more. By week 2 I was vacuuming. Yup, I had to ignore the pain. There was no choice. I couldn't cook for a few weeks due to the weakness and feelings like I was going to pass out. He brought that up in a conversation.
We haven't over the years of our marriage eaten many cooked meals together since I am a vegetarian and he is a carnivore. He tends to not eat much of what I cook. So that isn't the reason. It's just some excuse he brought up.
How do you folks survive financially when SSI pays so little?
I am terrified of my future. I had planned on being independent financially, becoming a nurse. Then MS hit big time. I have been to sick to hold down a job. Heck now days it hard to get out of the chair without help
It's all I have to survive on. Are there some states that pay more than others?
How do you all get through such a horrible situation. Even if this should miraculously blow over I will have to walk on eggshells waiting for the next event.
Its really hard because I do love him very deeply. He says he loves me, but I don't really know if he does. I don't know what to expect. These MS conversations about my Disability or Handicap have started coming more often since last year.
Ideas please. I am honestly scared.
My marriage is falling apart. We were married in 2009 with him knowing I might possibly have MS, but that the docs said I was ok. Even now my dx. is probable, never confirmed. I have all the full-blown symptoms each and every single day in and out.
Twice in the last few weeks my husband says the MS is destroying the marriage. I try not to talk about the MS or say anything if I hurt or complain.
I can't hide the weakness in my steps I take, or the pause have to make when I stand up to let the spasity pass or the burning pain leave that shoots through me. It shows on my face. The doctor won't prescribe meds that work. They all make me too loopy or feel weaker so I endure.
He got mad at me after he had been drinking. It seems like lately its a habit he started partaking in. When we got married in 2009 he didn't drink. I didn't have a clue.
In Jan. this year all of a sudden I started hemorrhaging, requiring emergency surgery and hysterectomy. I was exercising within the week as ordered by the doctor. My husband seemed to always feel like I needed to be doing more. By week 2 I was vacuuming. Yup, I had to ignore the pain. There was no choice. I couldn't cook for a few weeks due to the weakness and feelings like I was going to pass out. He brought that up in a conversation.
We haven't over the years of our marriage eaten many cooked meals together since I am a vegetarian and he is a carnivore. He tends to not eat much of what I cook. So that isn't the reason. It's just some excuse he brought up.
How do you folks survive financially when SSI pays so little?
I am terrified of my future. I had planned on being independent financially, becoming a nurse. Then MS hit big time. I have been to sick to hold down a job. Heck now days it hard to get out of the chair without help
It's all I have to survive on. Are there some states that pay more than others?
How do you all get through such a horrible situation. Even if this should miraculously blow over I will have to walk on eggshells waiting for the next event.
Its really hard because I do love him very deeply. He says he loves me, but I don't really know if he does. I don't know what to expect. These MS conversations about my Disability or Handicap have started coming more often since last year.
Ideas please. I am honestly scared.
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