hi i haven't been around much i hope everyone's well.
So, a new chapter of my life is going to begin very soon. I registered for online college today and took out sooo very many loans for it lol. in 3 short years i'll be a therapist! scary right me helping others?? lol i'm much better in person though....
I've also applied for disablility hoping it goes thru. i'm slowly making long term decisions for myself, not my husband and I. If you remember i was posting about him going to dr. etc. funny thing the dr. cancelled the last appt! that we waited a mos. for. long story short since than he's had one episode where to be very honest he was verbally abusive to me unlike never before.
so i'm now lining up my world so that if he doesnt go to dr get help he needs (he's also horribly depressed; which is NO excuse though) i'm leaving or will kick him out.
ms single and with a special needs child alone wasnt my "plan" yet i think this is one of those you have to trust in the higher power at this point sort of things.
i'm excited to start school, i'm also trying to start a small photography business on the side. ive found a new passion to replace the one i can no longer do which is horse back riding. so it is true you can make new dreams where the others fall off.
anyway wish me luck, i'm excited and scared at the same time to be making plans alone like this, saving money secretly all soo not me! it is sad, i love him yet i love me more. he has alot of work to do and it's going to be a long road for him if he choses to do it. he's got alot of healing to do so my therapist says. I think my stepkids not being "allowed" here anymore is what pushed it really off the charts. Yet he still talks to his ex wife, so as you can see alot of issues there......
just wanted to update ... it's nice to be able to come here and get stuff off my chest
So, a new chapter of my life is going to begin very soon. I registered for online college today and took out sooo very many loans for it lol. in 3 short years i'll be a therapist! scary right me helping others?? lol i'm much better in person though....
I've also applied for disablility hoping it goes thru. i'm slowly making long term decisions for myself, not my husband and I. If you remember i was posting about him going to dr. etc. funny thing the dr. cancelled the last appt! that we waited a mos. for. long story short since than he's had one episode where to be very honest he was verbally abusive to me unlike never before.
so i'm now lining up my world so that if he doesnt go to dr get help he needs (he's also horribly depressed; which is NO excuse though) i'm leaving or will kick him out.
ms single and with a special needs child alone wasnt my "plan" yet i think this is one of those you have to trust in the higher power at this point sort of things.
i'm excited to start school, i'm also trying to start a small photography business on the side. ive found a new passion to replace the one i can no longer do which is horse back riding. so it is true you can make new dreams where the others fall off.
anyway wish me luck, i'm excited and scared at the same time to be making plans alone like this, saving money secretly all soo not me! it is sad, i love him yet i love me more. he has alot of work to do and it's going to be a long road for him if he choses to do it. he's got alot of healing to do so my therapist says. I think my stepkids not being "allowed" here anymore is what pushed it really off the charts. Yet he still talks to his ex wife, so as you can see alot of issues there......
just wanted to update ... it's nice to be able to come here and get stuff off my chest
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