I meant to introduce myself in June but everything has been happening so fast, there has been no time or energy. I chose my avatar because a there was a beautiful little palm tree outside my apartment and it was growing new fronds every day. I loved watching it grow.
I had just gotten my avatar set up when I went outside and THE PALM TREE WAS GONE! I felt somehow that this was a bad omen and I was plenty angry at my neighbor with the chain saw.
To back up, I was given a probable MS dx in May 2010 [ 3 brain lesions and a negative LP] I went to a neuro because my right leg was feeling weak when I walked. She said she didn't think I had ms so when I read the results of the MRI I felt like the world was spinning and sinking at the same time.
I felt better after my pcp gave me a pep talk. She said "you're going to be OK". I started Avonex and braved that 1 1/2" needle for 5 weeks.
Then the PALM TREE. The day after the palm tree disappeared I woke up with my right eye completely red. Then I looked out the window and the bright sunlight made everything go white in that eye.
Went to emergency and the doctor said it was just an allergy and he was going to give me some drops. I told him I had ms and was worried about ON. He begrudgingly called my neuro at 2am and I was admitted to the hospital for 5 days on solu-medrol.
After I got out of the hospital, I saw my pcp and told her my eye still hurt. She said she didn't think the Avonex was working and put me on 3 more days of steroids through home health.
I can't describe the way I felt but it was like everything was slippery and I was wrapped in silk. I tried to carry on and went to my mother-in-law's 80th birthday party. When I got home, it got really scary. I tried to swallow and my throat felt paralyzed. I tried to step with my right foot and it felt like it wasn't there. I grabbed a stool so I wouldn't fall. My doctors weren't on call and I didn't dare go to the hospital at the mercy of the hospital staff so I took a high dose of prednisone on the advice of the "on call" Dr.
MRI showed 3 more active lesions! My dx went from probable to secondary progressive overnight.
I will have my second Tysabri infusion this Friday. I think it's helping. I feel more "normal" now.
But I'm a little lost. Where do I go from here? Before all this started I was getting my credential to teach English to adults. I want to keep working toward that but when I read the posts of all the exhausted teachers on this site I wonder if it's realistic. I guess we just have to keep living in spite of the uncertainty.
I'm hoping that the whirlwind is over, at least for a while. Good news: I planted some palm tree seeds in pots and they are just starting to sprout. Maybe this is a good omen.
I had just gotten my avatar set up when I went outside and THE PALM TREE WAS GONE! I felt somehow that this was a bad omen and I was plenty angry at my neighbor with the chain saw.
To back up, I was given a probable MS dx in May 2010 [ 3 brain lesions and a negative LP] I went to a neuro because my right leg was feeling weak when I walked. She said she didn't think I had ms so when I read the results of the MRI I felt like the world was spinning and sinking at the same time.
I felt better after my pcp gave me a pep talk. She said "you're going to be OK". I started Avonex and braved that 1 1/2" needle for 5 weeks.
Then the PALM TREE. The day after the palm tree disappeared I woke up with my right eye completely red. Then I looked out the window and the bright sunlight made everything go white in that eye.
Went to emergency and the doctor said it was just an allergy and he was going to give me some drops. I told him I had ms and was worried about ON. He begrudgingly called my neuro at 2am and I was admitted to the hospital for 5 days on solu-medrol.
After I got out of the hospital, I saw my pcp and told her my eye still hurt. She said she didn't think the Avonex was working and put me on 3 more days of steroids through home health.
I can't describe the way I felt but it was like everything was slippery and I was wrapped in silk. I tried to carry on and went to my mother-in-law's 80th birthday party. When I got home, it got really scary. I tried to swallow and my throat felt paralyzed. I tried to step with my right foot and it felt like it wasn't there. I grabbed a stool so I wouldn't fall. My doctors weren't on call and I didn't dare go to the hospital at the mercy of the hospital staff so I took a high dose of prednisone on the advice of the "on call" Dr.
MRI showed 3 more active lesions! My dx went from probable to secondary progressive overnight.
I will have my second Tysabri infusion this Friday. I think it's helping. I feel more "normal" now.
But I'm a little lost. Where do I go from here? Before all this started I was getting my credential to teach English to adults. I want to keep working toward that but when I read the posts of all the exhausted teachers on this site I wonder if it's realistic. I guess we just have to keep living in spite of the uncertainty.
I'm hoping that the whirlwind is over, at least for a while. Good news: I planted some palm tree seeds in pots and they are just starting to sprout. Maybe this is a good omen.
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