Hours and hours the tremors continue....take more meds...that will do it....relax, think gentle thoughts....hmmmm, test the tremors....aw, if I stop the hand, just the finger shakes...that's good....just fool the arm, like side stepping the computer when it thinks it's in control....just the finger
.....hmmmm...oh, now the toe moves...hmmm..I can win...I'll let my toe and ankle move and my finger...fool the arm..
oops that didnot work, now my entire leg tremors..oh, bad...
I'll go back to the arm...divert my thinking..that will work, sure...let the arm tremble til the meds take effect and just think of something else.....
...hmmm.oops, arm thinks it is in control, tremors increase, increase, INCREASE, Gosh, watch this...how BIG can this tremor get? OK, "tremor", just go for it...go big...go as big as you want..no one is watching...I don't have to hide..you just go as big as you want cuz I know the meds are going to catch up to you and KILLLLLL you...
Ooops, tremor is winning...arm is beating my shoulder...oh no, waking the pooch, DH is moving.....stop ye "tremor", STOP! STOP!
Ahhhh, you stopped. I CAN control u! No Tremor! Ah, does that mean I just imagine you? I am having an anxiety attack in my bed in the dark? ....cuz I killed you, TREMMMMMMOR!!!
Yep, you are gone...neener, neener, meds won, or I won...sleep soon......ahhhhhhh.....
My face? Tremor in my FACE? NOOOOOO, I am imagining this...I am dreaming....no my mouth is smiling on one side...then the other.....no, you blasted tremor.....you MOVED again!! Right cheek, left cheek ....right cheek left cheek....what a cruel joke..... My dimples on each side...depressing alternately. Right...left...right .... Left
Ok, ......time for more meds.. As I walk to the nearby bathroom, both legs bounce as if I were in a street gang initiation dance.....knees buckling...legs bouncing..OMG! Who or what possesses my BODY???
And, the real question remains.....how do I ever explain this to a neuro??????
.....hmmmm...oh, now the toe moves...hmmm..I can win...I'll let my toe and ankle move and my finger...fool the arm..
oops that didnot work, now my entire leg tremors..oh, bad...
I'll go back to the arm...divert my thinking..that will work, sure...let the arm tremble til the meds take effect and just think of something else.....
...hmmm.oops, arm thinks it is in control, tremors increase, increase, INCREASE, Gosh, watch this...how BIG can this tremor get? OK, "tremor", just go for it...go big...go as big as you want..no one is watching...I don't have to hide..you just go as big as you want cuz I know the meds are going to catch up to you and KILLLLLL you...
Ooops, tremor is winning...arm is beating my shoulder...oh no, waking the pooch, DH is moving.....stop ye "tremor", STOP! STOP!
Ahhhh, you stopped. I CAN control u! No Tremor! Ah, does that mean I just imagine you? I am having an anxiety attack in my bed in the dark? ....cuz I killed you, TREMMMMMMOR!!!
Yep, you are gone...neener, neener, meds won, or I won...sleep soon......ahhhhhhh.....
My face? Tremor in my FACE? NOOOOOO, I am imagining this...I am dreaming....no my mouth is smiling on one side...then the other.....no, you blasted tremor.....you MOVED again!! Right cheek, left cheek ....right cheek left cheek....what a cruel joke..... My dimples on each side...depressing alternately. Right...left...right .... Left
Ok, ......time for more meds.. As I walk to the nearby bathroom, both legs bounce as if I were in a street gang initiation dance.....knees buckling...legs bouncing..OMG! Who or what possesses my BODY???
And, the real question remains.....how do I ever explain this to a neuro??????
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