It's been so hard lately to keep up with everything. My fatigue is much worse. I know my schedule is way too much. Working full time, babysitting at least twice a week for my grandchildren, and all those appointments and tests.
Some days it's so hard to keep walking. My youngest daughter just graduated college and suddenly got a wonderful job in Manhattan. I'm so proud of her. We had to very quickly move her to NYC though. unfortunately, my other children were unable to come and help. One was away on vacation, one has a newborn who was very sick in ICU for a while, and my other is due to have her baby this week.
I tried to keep up, hired some movers to get things to her new apartment but in the two days I had free, we had to get a lot done. I didn't want her worrying about me so tried to hide all those awful symptoms that worsen the more fatigued I got- leg spasms and weakness being the worse. Never mind the emotional toll of her moving away, saying goodbye. And I'm so happy for her so wanted to be upbeat and enjoy the little time we had. Make sure she was settled in and had everything she needed to start up her career.
I'm back home now but WOW do I feel bad. Can barely walk and so so tired. I don't want my kids worrying so am trying to be upbeat and hide how I am feeling. I was supposed to spend the day with my expectant daughter but made an excuse so she wouldn't see how bad I'm walking. Which makes me feel awful since I know she needs help now.
I really hate this disease!!! As a single mom my whole life has been devoted to helping my kids and now I feel like I can't even give half myself. With all we have coped with over the years, I'm so happy that my kids have found wonderful spouses, careers, etc. and don't want anything like my problems to cause any stress for them
Anyway. I'm rambling now. Just feel like I'm failing in everything. Can't keep up with it all. I've never been a quitter, keep moving no matter what life has thrown at me, but MS makes that very hard. How do you cope? If I push too much then try to find a rest day is that so bad in the long run? Who knows?
Some days it's so hard to keep walking. My youngest daughter just graduated college and suddenly got a wonderful job in Manhattan. I'm so proud of her. We had to very quickly move her to NYC though. unfortunately, my other children were unable to come and help. One was away on vacation, one has a newborn who was very sick in ICU for a while, and my other is due to have her baby this week.
I tried to keep up, hired some movers to get things to her new apartment but in the two days I had free, we had to get a lot done. I didn't want her worrying about me so tried to hide all those awful symptoms that worsen the more fatigued I got- leg spasms and weakness being the worse. Never mind the emotional toll of her moving away, saying goodbye. And I'm so happy for her so wanted to be upbeat and enjoy the little time we had. Make sure she was settled in and had everything she needed to start up her career.
I'm back home now but WOW do I feel bad. Can barely walk and so so tired. I don't want my kids worrying so am trying to be upbeat and hide how I am feeling. I was supposed to spend the day with my expectant daughter but made an excuse so she wouldn't see how bad I'm walking. Which makes me feel awful since I know she needs help now.
I really hate this disease!!! As a single mom my whole life has been devoted to helping my kids and now I feel like I can't even give half myself. With all we have coped with over the years, I'm so happy that my kids have found wonderful spouses, careers, etc. and don't want anything like my problems to cause any stress for them
Anyway. I'm rambling now. Just feel like I'm failing in everything. Can't keep up with it all. I've never been a quitter, keep moving no matter what life has thrown at me, but MS makes that very hard. How do you cope? If I push too much then try to find a rest day is that so bad in the long run? Who knows?
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