Well all of the paperwork has finally been pushed through. It seems my Dad's insurance is covering 100% of my Tysabri so they have scheduled me for this Friday the 14th for my first infusion.
The good news? I received a call Monday with the JCV test and even though it seems I've never had good luck with medical tests... for the first time I received the test result I wanted. I'm JCV- .. I prepared myself to be positive due to the statistics on it and I was still going to take the risk. It gave me such a high to know that for once it was going my way.
With all of this positive, with all of the good energy flowing, why am I afraid now? Now that I have the date set for my first infusion. I've been pretty okay with everything and haven't been frightened much at all with all of the changes.... but why now? And why is my depression kicking in full force now of all times?! So much good seems to be balancing out with bad which.... well frankly it just ticks me off! It's like the universe is against us but we have no choice except to fight back. I'm confused on dealing with it all.
Is it the change happening faster than I expected? Have you all dealt with this and is it better after the first infusion is over? Anyone have any suggestions on how to make the first infusion go easier? I hope you all are doing great and I've missed being more active on the forums. This place is a lifesaver.
The good news? I received a call Monday with the JCV test and even though it seems I've never had good luck with medical tests... for the first time I received the test result I wanted. I'm JCV- .. I prepared myself to be positive due to the statistics on it and I was still going to take the risk. It gave me such a high to know that for once it was going my way.
With all of this positive, with all of the good energy flowing, why am I afraid now? Now that I have the date set for my first infusion. I've been pretty okay with everything and haven't been frightened much at all with all of the changes.... but why now? And why is my depression kicking in full force now of all times?! So much good seems to be balancing out with bad which.... well frankly it just ticks me off! It's like the universe is against us but we have no choice except to fight back. I'm confused on dealing with it all.
Is it the change happening faster than I expected? Have you all dealt with this and is it better after the first infusion is over? Anyone have any suggestions on how to make the first infusion go easier? I hope you all are doing great and I've missed being more active on the forums. This place is a lifesaver.
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