Hi!
Just a quick backstory- diagnosed at 25 yrs old in Jan 2000 (had symptoms yrs before) with 7-10 lesions. Immediately went on Avonex, then when lesions found on next MRI 18 mos., switched to Rebif. On Rebif for years, but no insurance, so no MRIs. Finally had MRI 7? yrs later and like 40-50 lesions. After having 3 attacks a year, switched to Copaxone. Still had lesions, so added ivsm for years (500 mg a month).
When changed neuros, she put me on Beta, but I was allergic. Don’t want Ty because I’m JCV+. After getting back on Copaxone, I have 1 attack a year, but still getting MRI every 6 mos—sometimes lesions, sometimes not. Even with IVSM, still couple lesions sometimes- report now says ‘innumerable’ now (they quit counting after 70). But, here’s the thing- I’m a disability level 0 (her words), so I feel like I’m doing the right thing for me right now. C has been great. I’ve lost 35 lbs going to the gym and dieting. I feel awesome! So, I dropped the ivsm. I’ve had gallons of the stuff over the years. I have another 40 lbs to lose and my family to watch over.
Then, neuro pressured me into trying Tec, telling me that I’ll become “paralyzed and demented” from lesions if I don’t do something. So, I reluctantly agreed to try Tec. Didn’t want to because I always get the worst side effects from pills. Took Tec for 3 of the worst days EVER!!! Decided not taking another pill (Tec or the others)! Perhaps I’m short-sighted, I'm 39 and I want to feel good now. I can always change later when/if my situation changes. But I’m afraid my neuro is going to freak out on me when I call her and ask for C again.
Is there anyone else in similar situation? I’ve been crying for 3 days, wondering if it’s even worth going on with my life… Even if my dr. thinks I’m stupid (and maybe I am), shouldn’t I still deserve to choose my own med? Sorry for rambling. The stress from this is going to cause me to flare and then she’ll say she told me so… In the end, is it selfish to do what feels right to me?
Just a quick backstory- diagnosed at 25 yrs old in Jan 2000 (had symptoms yrs before) with 7-10 lesions. Immediately went on Avonex, then when lesions found on next MRI 18 mos., switched to Rebif. On Rebif for years, but no insurance, so no MRIs. Finally had MRI 7? yrs later and like 40-50 lesions. After having 3 attacks a year, switched to Copaxone. Still had lesions, so added ivsm for years (500 mg a month).
When changed neuros, she put me on Beta, but I was allergic. Don’t want Ty because I’m JCV+. After getting back on Copaxone, I have 1 attack a year, but still getting MRI every 6 mos—sometimes lesions, sometimes not. Even with IVSM, still couple lesions sometimes- report now says ‘innumerable’ now (they quit counting after 70). But, here’s the thing- I’m a disability level 0 (her words), so I feel like I’m doing the right thing for me right now. C has been great. I’ve lost 35 lbs going to the gym and dieting. I feel awesome! So, I dropped the ivsm. I’ve had gallons of the stuff over the years. I have another 40 lbs to lose and my family to watch over.
Then, neuro pressured me into trying Tec, telling me that I’ll become “paralyzed and demented” from lesions if I don’t do something. So, I reluctantly agreed to try Tec. Didn’t want to because I always get the worst side effects from pills. Took Tec for 3 of the worst days EVER!!! Decided not taking another pill (Tec or the others)! Perhaps I’m short-sighted, I'm 39 and I want to feel good now. I can always change later when/if my situation changes. But I’m afraid my neuro is going to freak out on me when I call her and ask for C again.
Is there anyone else in similar situation? I’ve been crying for 3 days, wondering if it’s even worth going on with my life… Even if my dr. thinks I’m stupid (and maybe I am), shouldn’t I still deserve to choose my own med? Sorry for rambling. The stress from this is going to cause me to flare and then she’ll say she told me so… In the end, is it selfish to do what feels right to me?
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