I think I'm being paranoid. I hope so. I just kind of wanted some opinions I guess. I obviously know there are lots of tests needed to diagnose MS, and that no one can on a forum or anything like that. Anyways, here's a brief medical history to catch up what is going on now.
I have severe allergies, I have my whole life. I've always been an active bathroom user, but its gotten worse in the last few years. I wake up about every hour and a half to two hours at night to go. Often times I can't hold it more than 45 minutes during the day. It takes forever for the flow to start, and I have to make myself go 2-3 times to feel empty. I've had digestive pain since I was young. I went to doctor after doctor complaining. In this time I developed anxiety disorder and panic disorder. I've had major depression since I was 12. I finally got a doctor to do an endoscopy/colonoscopy to essentially shut me up because she thought I was a paranoid hypochondriac. 18 stomach polyps, 7 colon polyps, GERD, a hiatal hernia, chronic gastritis and IBS made her change her tune pretty quick.
Since I am no stranger to ailments, and am frequently on pretty heavy antidepressants, I tend to chalk anything odd going on to just how my strange body reacts to things. I tend to get many many side effects from any medication. About 4 weeks ago though, I woke up suddenly cross-eyed. I've never had eye problems except some bad nearsightedness. The psychiatrist was adamant that it was from propranolol and to wait it out and it would go away. 2 weeks later and an optometrist later it still wasn't fixed. I got in to see a neuro-opthamologist and she was puzzled. I am awaiting 2 MRIs.
In the week since I've seen her things have gone downhill. I am under a lot of stress, starting college again after 5 years of a break to try and help my anxiety and other issues. I've been trembly, but I've had antidepressants cause that in the past, so I don't know about that.
My hand and wrists have been hurting, but I chalked that up to not being used to taking notes. 3 days ago however, I was in class and my arm was twitching uncontrollably. Embarassing, but not obvious. Then a deep aching pain started all the way up my right arm. Shortly followed by the left arm. My toes started to feel numb, so I shuffled around in case they fell asleep. It went away but was replaced by a severe pain in my big toe radiating down my foot. It was like 1000 needles and fire. I had a hard time trying to not look in severe pain. It went away after a few minutes, but when I went to pick up my notebook and thin paperback text book, my arm was so weak I could barely do it. My whole right side stayed weak all night.
Since then, I have almost constant deep aching pain in my arms, hands, feet and lower legs. The occasional sharp toe pain or feeling of numbness comes and goes. It's hard to even sleep, I feel like my whole body hurts. I'm used to feeling fatigued, but this is just painfully fatigued. The only thing that eases the pain is my klonopin for my anxiety. I have to ration it between anxiety and pain, and its terrible trying to rank one more important than the other and suffer either way.
I'm sorry if its a bit of a rant. I have never dealt with body pain or sensations like this, and this is all new and scary. : (
I have severe allergies, I have my whole life. I've always been an active bathroom user, but its gotten worse in the last few years. I wake up about every hour and a half to two hours at night to go. Often times I can't hold it more than 45 minutes during the day. It takes forever for the flow to start, and I have to make myself go 2-3 times to feel empty. I've had digestive pain since I was young. I went to doctor after doctor complaining. In this time I developed anxiety disorder and panic disorder. I've had major depression since I was 12. I finally got a doctor to do an endoscopy/colonoscopy to essentially shut me up because she thought I was a paranoid hypochondriac. 18 stomach polyps, 7 colon polyps, GERD, a hiatal hernia, chronic gastritis and IBS made her change her tune pretty quick.
Since I am no stranger to ailments, and am frequently on pretty heavy antidepressants, I tend to chalk anything odd going on to just how my strange body reacts to things. I tend to get many many side effects from any medication. About 4 weeks ago though, I woke up suddenly cross-eyed. I've never had eye problems except some bad nearsightedness. The psychiatrist was adamant that it was from propranolol and to wait it out and it would go away. 2 weeks later and an optometrist later it still wasn't fixed. I got in to see a neuro-opthamologist and she was puzzled. I am awaiting 2 MRIs.
In the week since I've seen her things have gone downhill. I am under a lot of stress, starting college again after 5 years of a break to try and help my anxiety and other issues. I've been trembly, but I've had antidepressants cause that in the past, so I don't know about that.
My hand and wrists have been hurting, but I chalked that up to not being used to taking notes. 3 days ago however, I was in class and my arm was twitching uncontrollably. Embarassing, but not obvious. Then a deep aching pain started all the way up my right arm. Shortly followed by the left arm. My toes started to feel numb, so I shuffled around in case they fell asleep. It went away but was replaced by a severe pain in my big toe radiating down my foot. It was like 1000 needles and fire. I had a hard time trying to not look in severe pain. It went away after a few minutes, but when I went to pick up my notebook and thin paperback text book, my arm was so weak I could barely do it. My whole right side stayed weak all night.
Since then, I have almost constant deep aching pain in my arms, hands, feet and lower legs. The occasional sharp toe pain or feeling of numbness comes and goes. It's hard to even sleep, I feel like my whole body hurts. I'm used to feeling fatigued, but this is just painfully fatigued. The only thing that eases the pain is my klonopin for my anxiety. I have to ration it between anxiety and pain, and its terrible trying to rank one more important than the other and suffer either way.
I'm sorry if its a bit of a rant. I have never dealt with body pain or sensations like this, and this is all new and scary. : (
I am headed off to Mayo Clinic on Monday. My mother doesn't trust they will do a good job locally. Still gotta look out for her 25 year old baby, I understand. So I will be getting the MRI's and everything there now. Things have gone downhill. I am physically so exhausted I can barely go anywhere, and hurt all over, so I am very grateful for the opportunity to go to Mayo and get my answers! Will keep you posted! Love and healing thoughts to you all!!!
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