I saw my neuro yesterday after months of strange symptoms (peripheral neuropathy, nerve pain, headaches, vision issues, you name it...) that were first diagnosed as Guillain Barre syndrome.
She is very concerned that I may have MS and has scheduled me for VEP and a spine MRI - in six weeks time. She wouldn't prescribe me anything to treat the symptoms in the meantime so here I am basically surviving on ibuprofen. I am becoming increasingly anxious and depressed which as you all can imagine is really not helping things.
I have no idea how I am going to get through the next six weeks. I am currently living in a foreign country, thankfully with my partner but have no real friend circle to confide in or take my mind off things. And I can't even drown my sorrows as booze just makes the symptoms worse!
My neuro seems to think MS is a real possibility. I don't know whether to adopt (or at least try to adopt) a head in the sand attitude until the test results - or to prepare myself for what happens if they come back positive. A lot of things would have to change - to start with, I'm a "digital nomad" freelancer, not ideal for someone with a chronic condition.
I know that obsessing (and feeling angry with myself/the doctors who misdiagnosed me/life's unfairness in general) over an illness I may not have is not constructive and will just make things worse. At the same time I don't want to give myself false hope.
I know that a few weeks of uncertainty is not much compared to what a lot of you have been through, but I would really appreciate any advice on how to deal with this. I want to be brave, but I'm not in a good place right now...
Thanks in advance.
She is very concerned that I may have MS and has scheduled me for VEP and a spine MRI - in six weeks time. She wouldn't prescribe me anything to treat the symptoms in the meantime so here I am basically surviving on ibuprofen. I am becoming increasingly anxious and depressed which as you all can imagine is really not helping things.
I have no idea how I am going to get through the next six weeks. I am currently living in a foreign country, thankfully with my partner but have no real friend circle to confide in or take my mind off things. And I can't even drown my sorrows as booze just makes the symptoms worse!
My neuro seems to think MS is a real possibility. I don't know whether to adopt (or at least try to adopt) a head in the sand attitude until the test results - or to prepare myself for what happens if they come back positive. A lot of things would have to change - to start with, I'm a "digital nomad" freelancer, not ideal for someone with a chronic condition.
I know that obsessing (and feeling angry with myself/the doctors who misdiagnosed me/life's unfairness in general) over an illness I may not have is not constructive and will just make things worse. At the same time I don't want to give myself false hope.
I know that a few weeks of uncertainty is not much compared to what a lot of you have been through, but I would really appreciate any advice on how to deal with this. I want to be brave, but I'm not in a good place right now...
Thanks in advance.
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