This last week has been really tough for me. When all of this began, my initial symptoms were really only noticable to me. They didn't affect my movement and no one knew what I was experiencing unless I told them.
Lately, that has changed. My right leg has been persistently numb and hypersensitive to many sensations. Spasticity has also been an issue in both of my legs, but particularly my right. I now have a noticable foot drop. My balance has been off and I often lurch to the side for no reason. All of this combined means that I walk as if I'm drunk and limp for no (visibly obvious) reason.
My coordination in general has also been an issue. I drop everything. I often have to try twice to pick up smaller objects or do things like flip through papers. I try to laugh it off, but it's gotten to the point where it's becoming frustrating, especially at work, and it is just a reminder of the fact that something is wrong & right now, there is nothing I can do to change it.
Anyway, I've noticed that others are starting to notice. I've started getting concerned looks from coworkers. I've seen people stare - probably wondering what is wrong with me or if I've been drinking. But the crowning glory was when my 7yo niece asked her mom why her auntie keeps dropping everything & if everything is ok.
I feel bad that the kids are even starting to notice, and I hope that my oldest son (6yo) is oblivious. I don't want them burdened with this any more (or any sooner) than they need to be. I don't want them to worry when we don't even know for sure what is going on.
I also hate that random people see it. I hate the looks of pity & curiosity. It's embarassing to me. I feel weak & I don't like it.
I guess I'm just having an off day. Thanks for letting me vent.
Lately, that has changed. My right leg has been persistently numb and hypersensitive to many sensations. Spasticity has also been an issue in both of my legs, but particularly my right. I now have a noticable foot drop. My balance has been off and I often lurch to the side for no reason. All of this combined means that I walk as if I'm drunk and limp for no (visibly obvious) reason.
My coordination in general has also been an issue. I drop everything. I often have to try twice to pick up smaller objects or do things like flip through papers. I try to laugh it off, but it's gotten to the point where it's becoming frustrating, especially at work, and it is just a reminder of the fact that something is wrong & right now, there is nothing I can do to change it.
Anyway, I've noticed that others are starting to notice. I've started getting concerned looks from coworkers. I've seen people stare - probably wondering what is wrong with me or if I've been drinking. But the crowning glory was when my 7yo niece asked her mom why her auntie keeps dropping everything & if everything is ok.
I feel bad that the kids are even starting to notice, and I hope that my oldest son (6yo) is oblivious. I don't want them burdened with this any more (or any sooner) than they need to be. I don't want them to worry when we don't even know for sure what is going on.
I also hate that random people see it. I hate the looks of pity & curiosity. It's embarassing to me. I feel weak & I don't like it.
I guess I'm just having an off day. Thanks for letting me vent.
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