I've been with my boyfriend for just over a year. I've been living with him for a year. When we met, my life was chaotic at best and I moved in very quickly because it just wasn't good for me to stay with my parents. We've been through a lot in a short period of time; he went away for four months for military training and he's helped me recovery from a nasty relapse of bulimia. I have a long history of an eating disorder and I also struggle with PTSD and anxiety and he puts up with a lot.
Now I'm in limbo and going through the diagnostic process. I want to talk about our future but I'm also really scared. I told him I wouldn't judge if this changes things but he assures me he's not going anywhere. I want to make sure he knows what he's getting into but I also don't want to scare him away. I love him so much I don't know what I would do without him. He's older than me (he's 29 and I'm 23) and he's made it clear he wants to marry me but I'm just afraid.
I guess only time will tell but I don't really know how to handle it all.
Now I'm in limbo and going through the diagnostic process. I want to talk about our future but I'm also really scared. I told him I wouldn't judge if this changes things but he assures me he's not going anywhere. I want to make sure he knows what he's getting into but I also don't want to scare him away. I love him so much I don't know what I would do without him. He's older than me (he's 29 and I'm 23) and he's made it clear he wants to marry me but I'm just afraid.
I guess only time will tell but I don't really know how to handle it all.
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