I have a couple of questions for the people here.
1. Can B12 deficiency cause csf oligoclonal bands to show up? I have found a few places that say yes but I don't know if it is true. I know it can cause brain lesions so I was wondering about the bands. The doctors refused to test me for this when they first told me how my life has been cursed so I did my own research and want to see if it is worth it to ask for a second spinal tap if my MRI comes back normal.
2. If I am getting my hopes up for nothing (but hey I haven't had hope in almost year so at least I might get to feel hopeful one more time....) how does everyone live knowing that their life is basically over?
3. I love my boyfriend and I thought we were going to be together for life, but I do not feel like it is fair for him to be my caretaker when the day comes when I am a paralyzed cripple. Would it be better for me to just break up with him now so he can still find a normal woman to have a life with? I love him and I know he deserves more than a life with me will give him.
Right now my method is coming home from work and taking some medicine so I can sleep. I honestly do not see the point in ANYTHING if I am cursed for life. I basically have no one to talk to about this because it is humiliating to me to admit that my brain is basically rotting out of my head
I just find this entire situation unfair. I had so many plans for my future and now I am basically just waiting around to become disabled. I can’t even decide if I should work hard to pay off my student loans or just wait until I am on disability since if I am unable to work because of a disability I don’t have to pay them.
Thanks to anyone who read and responds to my rambling. I never knew how completely alone someone can feel in life and knowing no matter what I do this is how I will always feel makes me even more depressed.
1. Can B12 deficiency cause csf oligoclonal bands to show up? I have found a few places that say yes but I don't know if it is true. I know it can cause brain lesions so I was wondering about the bands. The doctors refused to test me for this when they first told me how my life has been cursed so I did my own research and want to see if it is worth it to ask for a second spinal tap if my MRI comes back normal.
2. If I am getting my hopes up for nothing (but hey I haven't had hope in almost year so at least I might get to feel hopeful one more time....) how does everyone live knowing that their life is basically over?
3. I love my boyfriend and I thought we were going to be together for life, but I do not feel like it is fair for him to be my caretaker when the day comes when I am a paralyzed cripple. Would it be better for me to just break up with him now so he can still find a normal woman to have a life with? I love him and I know he deserves more than a life with me will give him.
Right now my method is coming home from work and taking some medicine so I can sleep. I honestly do not see the point in ANYTHING if I am cursed for life. I basically have no one to talk to about this because it is humiliating to me to admit that my brain is basically rotting out of my head
I just find this entire situation unfair. I had so many plans for my future and now I am basically just waiting around to become disabled. I can’t even decide if I should work hard to pay off my student loans or just wait until I am on disability since if I am unable to work because of a disability I don’t have to pay them.
Thanks to anyone who read and responds to my rambling. I never knew how completely alone someone can feel in life and knowing no matter what I do this is how I will always feel makes me even more depressed.
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