I have been under a tremedous ammount of stress lately. Problems back home with my mentally ill mother who puts me down, yells at me all the time, and tells me I'm not good enough (at least I'm too old for the physical abuse). She is a story unto herself.
My MIL died of breast cancer last week. It was a quick decline and a tough loss for the whole family. My mother, a narcissist, was actually jealous of the attention paid to my MIL.
Anyway, I've been burning the candle at both ends. Not eating or sleeping well. I've been at my job for 13 years and this was a first...I fell asleep at work! Instead of checking to see if I was okay, they took pictures of me and sent them to my boss. HR made me go home. My boss was very understanding, spoke to HR, and I was allowed to come back to work.
My cog fog is terrible. I can't get the words out when I talk. I get tongue tied. We were short staffed last week and extremely busy. The Lead called me out in front of everyone in the office and fussed at me for not getting done more quickly. I was doing the work of 2 people. I'm good at my job. I'm not going anywhere (I hope).
I just feel so stupid and inadequate. I feel like everyone hates me (though that may be my low self esteem talking). Does anyone else feel bad because MS messes with your body and mind?
** Moderator's note - Post broken into paragraphs for easier reading. Many people with MS have visual difficulties that prevent them from reading large blocks of print. **
My MIL died of breast cancer last week. It was a quick decline and a tough loss for the whole family. My mother, a narcissist, was actually jealous of the attention paid to my MIL.
Anyway, I've been burning the candle at both ends. Not eating or sleeping well. I've been at my job for 13 years and this was a first...I fell asleep at work! Instead of checking to see if I was okay, they took pictures of me and sent them to my boss. HR made me go home. My boss was very understanding, spoke to HR, and I was allowed to come back to work.
My cog fog is terrible. I can't get the words out when I talk. I get tongue tied. We were short staffed last week and extremely busy. The Lead called me out in front of everyone in the office and fussed at me for not getting done more quickly. I was doing the work of 2 people. I'm good at my job. I'm not going anywhere (I hope).
I just feel so stupid and inadequate. I feel like everyone hates me (though that may be my low self esteem talking). Does anyone else feel bad because MS messes with your body and mind?
** Moderator's note - Post broken into paragraphs for easier reading. Many people with MS have visual difficulties that prevent them from reading large blocks of print. **
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