I have not controlled my anxiety at time and my mind creeps into some dark places, I can't help it.
being 36y/o male and a pretty bad flare affecting my motor nerves like walking and gait, facial and leg/arm weakness, right hand numbness and fine motor skills, some bladder hesitance and balance issues. Now my walk has drastically improved and balance shows signs of coming along (can stand alone on affected right leg for longer and longer each week) my left leg I can stand indefinitely on. My sensory numbness has no change but my writing has improved a little now.
Im recovering from a 9 week flare (diagnosis exacerbation) had ms for up to 5 years ago with dizziness spells, incoordination sensations and bladder hesitation, although short lived and completely recovered.
Now im still recovering from my major diagnosis flare in sep./oct. hoping I keep getting better and better as I see small improvement almost daily, albeit minuscule I am doing things I couldn't just weeks ago (stairs with no handrails, getting outta bed with abdominal muscle, eating with right hand, showering, walking with no aid etc...)
I feel as tho I'm regaining pieces of normal life back but have a ways to go still (maybe all winter) to recover from my flare caused by 1 brainstem lesion that was inflamed for 9 weeks causing multiple symptoms including fatigue.
im seeing a psychiatrist for my anxiety but I can't shake these feelings of:
do I have an aggressive course of MS? A wheelchair future does not sit well with me and am I destined for a life of disability? What's my prognosis look like at 36 and being male? I'm taking tecfidera but will push tysabri at my next neuro meeting as I don't want any more damage. Seems my recovery is moving along but needs more time. I get worried for my future and hope my MS will stabalize at some point soon.
any advice will be greatly appreciated especially with males who were diagnosed around my age, I hear of ppl that can lead normal lives and have an easy course of the disease and hope mine isn't so hard, I have so many "what if" scenarios in my head it's driving myself crazy, I have yet to adjust to this disease yet.
thx
being 36y/o male and a pretty bad flare affecting my motor nerves like walking and gait, facial and leg/arm weakness, right hand numbness and fine motor skills, some bladder hesitance and balance issues. Now my walk has drastically improved and balance shows signs of coming along (can stand alone on affected right leg for longer and longer each week) my left leg I can stand indefinitely on. My sensory numbness has no change but my writing has improved a little now.
Im recovering from a 9 week flare (diagnosis exacerbation) had ms for up to 5 years ago with dizziness spells, incoordination sensations and bladder hesitation, although short lived and completely recovered.
Now im still recovering from my major diagnosis flare in sep./oct. hoping I keep getting better and better as I see small improvement almost daily, albeit minuscule I am doing things I couldn't just weeks ago (stairs with no handrails, getting outta bed with abdominal muscle, eating with right hand, showering, walking with no aid etc...)
I feel as tho I'm regaining pieces of normal life back but have a ways to go still (maybe all winter) to recover from my flare caused by 1 brainstem lesion that was inflamed for 9 weeks causing multiple symptoms including fatigue.
im seeing a psychiatrist for my anxiety but I can't shake these feelings of:
do I have an aggressive course of MS? A wheelchair future does not sit well with me and am I destined for a life of disability? What's my prognosis look like at 36 and being male? I'm taking tecfidera but will push tysabri at my next neuro meeting as I don't want any more damage. Seems my recovery is moving along but needs more time. I get worried for my future and hope my MS will stabalize at some point soon.
any advice will be greatly appreciated especially with males who were diagnosed around my age, I hear of ppl that can lead normal lives and have an easy course of the disease and hope mine isn't so hard, I have so many "what if" scenarios in my head it's driving myself crazy, I have yet to adjust to this disease yet.
thx
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