since I have been diagnosed I am scared. Though I have only been diagnosed for 31/2 years it took 10 years to finally arrive there. In that time I had the usual symptoms and while they were being treated the MS itself wasn't. I often wondered what damage occurred in that 10 years. While I may never know I know what damage has been caused now.
For the last 4 days I have been using two canes to walk around. The spasticity in my legs is off the charts. I was explaining it to my Neuro today and he seemed to be astonished. He witnessed for the first time my inability to think of words at the proper moment. thank goodness my DW was with me to finish my thoughts. She has become real good with it.
It was after this visit that I became scared. It took me back to the day I was diagnosed and my son called to ask me how I was doing. I told him I was fine but was scared of the thought that I may one day end up in a wheelchair. I ear that day is approaching faster than either I or my Neuro expected.
We both knew my MS was progressing but he seemed to think that it is progressing at a more rapid rate than he first thought. He came to that conclusion after my exam and after reviewing my latest MRI with the Radiologist.
I don't have a question I just needed to say I'm scared. I know that may sound corny but it is hard to admit some time. It's real hard for me. I knew everyone here would understand so I came here. I sure some of you have been there. I'm scared and I'll deal with it. I'll deal with whatever MS has in store for me. Life goes on, but it's ok to be scared.
Thanks for letting me ramble.
For the last 4 days I have been using two canes to walk around. The spasticity in my legs is off the charts. I was explaining it to my Neuro today and he seemed to be astonished. He witnessed for the first time my inability to think of words at the proper moment. thank goodness my DW was with me to finish my thoughts. She has become real good with it.
It was after this visit that I became scared. It took me back to the day I was diagnosed and my son called to ask me how I was doing. I told him I was fine but was scared of the thought that I may one day end up in a wheelchair. I ear that day is approaching faster than either I or my Neuro expected.
We both knew my MS was progressing but he seemed to think that it is progressing at a more rapid rate than he first thought. He came to that conclusion after my exam and after reviewing my latest MRI with the Radiologist.
I don't have a question I just needed to say I'm scared. I know that may sound corny but it is hard to admit some time. It's real hard for me. I knew everyone here would understand so I came here. I sure some of you have been there. I'm scared and I'll deal with it. I'll deal with whatever MS has in store for me. Life goes on, but it's ok to be scared.
Thanks for letting me ramble.
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