So my family tends to take a lot of vacations during the summer months and they always ask me to come along. The problem is, every vacation they go on involves going to theme parks, which means walking around all day in the heat. That's not an option for me.
Last year they went to Florida for a week (that was multiple theme parks) and my mom even said I should go just to get away from home for a bit. I refused. I'm not going all that way just to sit in a house all day while they all go out and have fun. I can do that at home. My brother mentioned that I could rent a wheelchair, but that's certainly not happening. No offense to the people in wheelchairs, but I refuse to use one when I can still walk. Honestly, the biggest problem for me is that people would see me and think that I'm just being lazy. I realize it doesn't matter when I'll never see them again, but that really bothers me.
My family has already made one trip to six flags over Memorial day, and next week they're leaving again for a few days. Meanwhile, I'm stuck here taking care of their dogs. Every time they ask me if I'm going, I tell them I can't because my body won't let me walk that far. I've even tried suggesting that some of us go elsewhere while the others go to theme parks (which we've done before in my pre-MS days and had fun), but that didn't go anywhere.
It makes me feel like a total outcast when they always do these things that they know I can't do. I try to hint around at it when I explain to them there's no way I can handle whatever they're doing, but it goes nowhere. They already think I'm just being lazy and dramatic about things at home, so it would do me no good to come out and tell them everything about the plans they always make that would be impossible to include me. Even though they see how bad I can get (we've gone on walks at the park that almost always ended with me getting picked up before the end because I couldn't make it, which caused me to quit going because I hated it), nobody ever stops to think that I can't do the things they always do, even when I point it out all the time, but then I'm just being dramatic. After all, they seem to think that my life is just so easy (sadly, I'm not even making that up).
Last year they went to Florida for a week (that was multiple theme parks) and my mom even said I should go just to get away from home for a bit. I refused. I'm not going all that way just to sit in a house all day while they all go out and have fun. I can do that at home. My brother mentioned that I could rent a wheelchair, but that's certainly not happening. No offense to the people in wheelchairs, but I refuse to use one when I can still walk. Honestly, the biggest problem for me is that people would see me and think that I'm just being lazy. I realize it doesn't matter when I'll never see them again, but that really bothers me.
My family has already made one trip to six flags over Memorial day, and next week they're leaving again for a few days. Meanwhile, I'm stuck here taking care of their dogs. Every time they ask me if I'm going, I tell them I can't because my body won't let me walk that far. I've even tried suggesting that some of us go elsewhere while the others go to theme parks (which we've done before in my pre-MS days and had fun), but that didn't go anywhere.
It makes me feel like a total outcast when they always do these things that they know I can't do. I try to hint around at it when I explain to them there's no way I can handle whatever they're doing, but it goes nowhere. They already think I'm just being lazy and dramatic about things at home, so it would do me no good to come out and tell them everything about the plans they always make that would be impossible to include me. Even though they see how bad I can get (we've gone on walks at the park that almost always ended with me getting picked up before the end because I couldn't make it, which caused me to quit going because I hated it), nobody ever stops to think that I can't do the things they always do, even when I point it out all the time, but then I'm just being dramatic. After all, they seem to think that my life is just so easy (sadly, I'm not even making that up).
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