HELLO EVERYONE,
I WAS VERY ACTIVE ON THIS SITE BACK IN 2011 WHEN I WAS NEWLY DIAGNOSED. I AM EXTREMELY LUCKY IN THAT I HAVE LITTLE TO NO SYMPTOMS, MY MS WAS CAUGHT VERY EARLY AND I WAS IMMEDIATELY PUT ON COPAXONE.
MY MOTHER WAS NOT SO LUCKY. SHE HAS HAD RRMS FOR MANY YEARS, WAS DIAGNOSED MAYBE 10 YEARS AGO BUT HAS HAD IT FOR MUCH LONGER. SHE IS GETTING PROGRESSIVELY WORSE. SHE SUFFERS FROM SEVERE FOOT DROP, SHE CAN BARELY LIFT EITHER OF HER FEET. THIS IS THE WORST OF HER SYMPTOMS AT THE MOMENT BUT THERE ARE MANY OTHERS.
I MOVED ACROSS THE COUNTRY A YEAR AGO. IT WAS A HARD DECISION, BUT I DID IT FOR ME (I MOVED WITH MY LONG TERM BOYFRIEND.) I KNEW OF I DIDN'T DO IT I WOULD REGRET IT. I AM 27, HE IS 29. I KNEW IF I DIDN'T DO THIS WHILE I WAS STILL YOUNG, I WOULD REGRET IT. BUT STILL, I FEEL VERY GUILTY FOR LEAVING HER. SHE MISSES ME, OF COURSE. I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO VISIT 3 TIMES SINCE THE MOVE IN APRIL, 2012.
SHE HAS BEEN HAVING ISSUES WITH HER BETASERON SO SHE WAS SENT FOR MRIS. LONG STORY SHORT...SHE WAS TOLD THAT IT LOOKS LIKE SHE HAS LIVER CANCER. THREE GROWTHS, 1 LARGE, 2 SMALL. APPARENTLY THIS WAS ON HER FALL MRI BUT HER NEUROLOGIST NEVER DID ANYTHING WITH IT. HE IS SUPPOSED TO BE A TOP DOC...
I DO NOT HAVE A LOT OF INFORMATION YET BUT I AM TERRIFIED. I HIDE IT FROM HER BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO STRESS HER OUT FURTHER. ODDS ARE THE CANCER CAME FROM SOMEWHERE ELSE...ONLY FURTHER TESTING WILL TELL US WHERE, WHAT STAGE...I JUST KNOW EVEN IF ITS TREATABLE THE TREATMENTS WILL ONLY MAKE HER WEAKER. I AM NOT IN THE POSITION TO MOVE BACK...I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO. ANY COMFORTING WORDS FROM SOMEONE WHO HAS DEALT WITH MS AND CANCER, OR THE GUILT OF LEAVING A SICK PARENT, I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR WHAT YOU THINK.
THANK YOU ALL FOR READING.
I WAS VERY ACTIVE ON THIS SITE BACK IN 2011 WHEN I WAS NEWLY DIAGNOSED. I AM EXTREMELY LUCKY IN THAT I HAVE LITTLE TO NO SYMPTOMS, MY MS WAS CAUGHT VERY EARLY AND I WAS IMMEDIATELY PUT ON COPAXONE.
MY MOTHER WAS NOT SO LUCKY. SHE HAS HAD RRMS FOR MANY YEARS, WAS DIAGNOSED MAYBE 10 YEARS AGO BUT HAS HAD IT FOR MUCH LONGER. SHE IS GETTING PROGRESSIVELY WORSE. SHE SUFFERS FROM SEVERE FOOT DROP, SHE CAN BARELY LIFT EITHER OF HER FEET. THIS IS THE WORST OF HER SYMPTOMS AT THE MOMENT BUT THERE ARE MANY OTHERS.
I MOVED ACROSS THE COUNTRY A YEAR AGO. IT WAS A HARD DECISION, BUT I DID IT FOR ME (I MOVED WITH MY LONG TERM BOYFRIEND.) I KNEW OF I DIDN'T DO IT I WOULD REGRET IT. I AM 27, HE IS 29. I KNEW IF I DIDN'T DO THIS WHILE I WAS STILL YOUNG, I WOULD REGRET IT. BUT STILL, I FEEL VERY GUILTY FOR LEAVING HER. SHE MISSES ME, OF COURSE. I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO VISIT 3 TIMES SINCE THE MOVE IN APRIL, 2012.
SHE HAS BEEN HAVING ISSUES WITH HER BETASERON SO SHE WAS SENT FOR MRIS. LONG STORY SHORT...SHE WAS TOLD THAT IT LOOKS LIKE SHE HAS LIVER CANCER. THREE GROWTHS, 1 LARGE, 2 SMALL. APPARENTLY THIS WAS ON HER FALL MRI BUT HER NEUROLOGIST NEVER DID ANYTHING WITH IT. HE IS SUPPOSED TO BE A TOP DOC...
I DO NOT HAVE A LOT OF INFORMATION YET BUT I AM TERRIFIED. I HIDE IT FROM HER BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO STRESS HER OUT FURTHER. ODDS ARE THE CANCER CAME FROM SOMEWHERE ELSE...ONLY FURTHER TESTING WILL TELL US WHERE, WHAT STAGE...I JUST KNOW EVEN IF ITS TREATABLE THE TREATMENTS WILL ONLY MAKE HER WEAKER. I AM NOT IN THE POSITION TO MOVE BACK...I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO. ANY COMFORTING WORDS FROM SOMEONE WHO HAS DEALT WITH MS AND CANCER, OR THE GUILT OF LEAVING A SICK PARENT, I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR WHAT YOU THINK.
THANK YOU ALL FOR READING.
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