Good morning! Many times I have a symptom and then wonder is it MS? I've been noticing a flash of light (best way I can describe it) out of the corner of my eye. Had an eye exam about a month ago by a Neuro eye doctor. He said I was fine. Really don't want to go back to him though. He made feel rather insignificant. He looked at my age 64 and immediately said "wow, you must have an extremely mild case" and rather "poopooed" the whole thing. Maybe I'm being silly but sometimes it gets frustrating when people (including my Neuro) you're looking good and you're not getting any worse".
Of course I am grateful for that but what they don't know is that my hands were feeling numb as we talk, that my muscles were hurting and I couldn't wait to get home to rest I am so exhausted. That I couldn't remember what they said just minutes ago. That when I drove to the store blocks from my house I couldn't remember how to get home! When I had to call my daughter because I couldn't find my car in the WM parking lot and couldn't even think how to look for it. Was the most horrible feeling...alone and confused! Most people feel if you can walk it must be mild or not serious (I used to be one of those people).
I never realized I could wake up tomorrow with totally different symptoms. The "unknown" is the scary part. Wow, I had to go back and read why I started this! Lol Never meant to go on like this! Although, all these things have been bothering me. Most of my symptoms are invisible to others. Not looking for sympathy, just understanding. That's why I'm glad I found this forum! Anyway, back to the eyes...Lol...it's a flash of light I'm seeing just every so often out of the corner of my eye. I also see things wrong (I read someone else experiencing same thing)'''glad to hear I'm not crazy since eye doctor said not my eyes. Has to be cognitive.
One of my lesions is down the center of my brain. Thinking that's it. Just wondering about the light and should I just ignore it. I had a tear in my retina several years ago (other eye) but was also seeing lots of black specks at that time. No black specks this time but did have that light flash few years ago when I had retina tear. Costs so much money every time I call the doctor! Well, if you made it this far, thanks for listening to me! It is so appreciated because I feel I have found someone who finally understands! Just thought maybe someone else has experienced something similar. Have a Blessed day everyone!
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Of course I am grateful for that but what they don't know is that my hands were feeling numb as we talk, that my muscles were hurting and I couldn't wait to get home to rest I am so exhausted. That I couldn't remember what they said just minutes ago. That when I drove to the store blocks from my house I couldn't remember how to get home! When I had to call my daughter because I couldn't find my car in the WM parking lot and couldn't even think how to look for it. Was the most horrible feeling...alone and confused! Most people feel if you can walk it must be mild or not serious (I used to be one of those people).
I never realized I could wake up tomorrow with totally different symptoms. The "unknown" is the scary part. Wow, I had to go back and read why I started this! Lol Never meant to go on like this! Although, all these things have been bothering me. Most of my symptoms are invisible to others. Not looking for sympathy, just understanding. That's why I'm glad I found this forum! Anyway, back to the eyes...Lol...it's a flash of light I'm seeing just every so often out of the corner of my eye. I also see things wrong (I read someone else experiencing same thing)'''glad to hear I'm not crazy since eye doctor said not my eyes. Has to be cognitive.
One of my lesions is down the center of my brain. Thinking that's it. Just wondering about the light and should I just ignore it. I had a tear in my retina several years ago (other eye) but was also seeing lots of black specks at that time. No black specks this time but did have that light flash few years ago when I had retina tear. Costs so much money every time I call the doctor! Well, if you made it this far, thanks for listening to me! It is so appreciated because I feel I have found someone who finally understands! Just thought maybe someone else has experienced something similar. Have a Blessed day everyone!
** Moderator's note - Post broken into paragraphs for easier reading. Many people with MS have visual difficulties that prevent them from reading large blocks of print. **
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