Well, at least that's how the saying goes. For me, it may be more accurate to say, one step forward and grab a walker.
I have to say, I still can't tell, sometimes, if I am starting another flare or if I am going through a pseudo-flare because of some kind of infection or even stress. I am learning toward the "possible infection" scenario this time. Partly because I just finished an antibiotic about a week ago and Prednisone a few days ago.
I have to say, I really just want to feel good for awhile. Too many times being sick, this year, has led me to feel plain ol' worn out. I need to feel good again; to feel slightly normal (my own version of it) again.
I am so tired of being tired. So tired of extra naps because I "overdid" it again. I have plans and dreams that I have been excited about. I don't want any more flares and I don't want to spend another upcoming school year at home without some occupation to make me feel useful and "alive" once again.
Please excuse my little pity party; at 5:24 a.m. with an aching back that has awakened me since 4:30-ish, I am not in the best of moods.
What do I really want? I would really love to feel better, for one. I would love to improve in my health enough to convince my husband (& self) that I can teach again. I mostly want to homeschool my daughter and teach handwriting skills once/week for the homeschool Co-op in the fall. I did turn in my paperwork to my work, letting them know that the doctor has released me from medical leave. If I can't do both (teach one college course and homeschool/volunteer to teach one day/week in the fall, I would definitely want to homeschool my daughter.
How can I get well enough to even consider these as options, when I can't seem to get/stay well enough to do the basic day to day tasks (and I am not even talking about cleaning house)?
Trying not to become discouraged, but it is hard.
I have to say, I still can't tell, sometimes, if I am starting another flare or if I am going through a pseudo-flare because of some kind of infection or even stress. I am learning toward the "possible infection" scenario this time. Partly because I just finished an antibiotic about a week ago and Prednisone a few days ago.
I have to say, I really just want to feel good for awhile. Too many times being sick, this year, has led me to feel plain ol' worn out. I need to feel good again; to feel slightly normal (my own version of it) again.
I am so tired of being tired. So tired of extra naps because I "overdid" it again. I have plans and dreams that I have been excited about. I don't want any more flares and I don't want to spend another upcoming school year at home without some occupation to make me feel useful and "alive" once again.
Please excuse my little pity party; at 5:24 a.m. with an aching back that has awakened me since 4:30-ish, I am not in the best of moods.
What do I really want? I would really love to feel better, for one. I would love to improve in my health enough to convince my husband (& self) that I can teach again. I mostly want to homeschool my daughter and teach handwriting skills once/week for the homeschool Co-op in the fall. I did turn in my paperwork to my work, letting them know that the doctor has released me from medical leave. If I can't do both (teach one college course and homeschool/volunteer to teach one day/week in the fall, I would definitely want to homeschool my daughter.
How can I get well enough to even consider these as options, when I can't seem to get/stay well enough to do the basic day to day tasks (and I am not even talking about cleaning house)?
Trying not to become discouraged, but it is hard.
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