I've been feeling so guilty this Christmas and New Year. I have avoided as many meals out and parties as possible.
I'm a lot worse walking-wise than once I was (nearly poetic, that). And I'm soooo tired.
Seeing people who haven't seen me for a long time, I can see they're a bit taken aback.
I can see it's hard for my family to see me like this, and for them to explain (or not) to other people what's going on. I know this is what goes on as soon as I leave the room. Yes, yes, but just because you're paranoid doesn't mean you're not being followed.
So, here's the question, do you blurt it all out, do you fake as much of it as you can, or do you make up an excuse for not going, or staying too long?
I know we have to look after ourselves, but I can't put myself first because I already feel so bad about what my disease is doing to the people I love. So I feel like I have to act healthy.
Never mind. Holidays over soon, thank heavens.
I'm a lot worse walking-wise than once I was (nearly poetic, that). And I'm soooo tired.
Seeing people who haven't seen me for a long time, I can see they're a bit taken aback.
I can see it's hard for my family to see me like this, and for them to explain (or not) to other people what's going on. I know this is what goes on as soon as I leave the room. Yes, yes, but just because you're paranoid doesn't mean you're not being followed.
So, here's the question, do you blurt it all out, do you fake as much of it as you can, or do you make up an excuse for not going, or staying too long?
I know we have to look after ourselves, but I can't put myself first because I already feel so bad about what my disease is doing to the people I love. So I feel like I have to act healthy.
Never mind. Holidays over soon, thank heavens.
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