Hello all. During one of my increasingly frequent depressive moments, I posted a question on Yahoo! Answers detailing my symptoms, and someone said it sounds like I have MS. I have considered it in the past, but the thing that always tells me, "Couldn't be." is the fact that I have this stabbing pain on one very specific spot on the back of my head all of the time. Anyway, I'm just going to copy and paste my question below.
"How do I go about breaking the news to people in my life that I'm, well, a moron?
A lot of people in my life think I'm a really smart person because I made As in almost every single class I ever took while in school and am, according to some people at least, fairly well spoken.
Thing is, though, I've actually done probably the stupidest thing for the past about 8 years of my life. I've been getting progressively sicker and haven't seen a doctor for it out of fear and haven't really told anyone...I mean, I've told people I get dizzy and headaches a lot, but that's just about 2% of all of the problems I've developed, and no one really took me seriously after a while because the complaints were so frequent.
I think I have a brain tumor or an aneurysm. Obviously I can't be certain, but honestly, there aren't too many other conditions that could explain all of the neurological issues I have. I have this one spot on the back of my head that hurts REALLY REALLY bad all of the time. Sometimes the pain is worse than other times, but it pretty much hurts every second that I'm awake. I have serious difficulties concentrating on anything. Sometimes I have these episodes where it feels like all of the blood is draining from my brain and I'm about to black out. I get dizzy randomly. I have no balance...I feel like I'm about to fall half of the time. I have serious trouble remembering words...there are so many times when I sit there going, "...oh, what's that thing called?" about basic things, like, I couldn't remember the name of an elliptical the other day. Recently, I've had this 24/7 ringing sound in my ear that will not let up. It often feels as though there's liquid swooshing around in my skull. Sometimes I start feeling like all of my senses are dulled and almost like I'm not really in my body b/c I can barely feel anything. Sometimes my skull goes numb. It's really, really difficult to explain. I just know that my body feels like a torture chamber.
It's gotten so bad to the point that I'm afraid to go out in public b/c sometimes my mind just goes blank and I get really disoriented feeling. I just sit in my bedroom all day long; it's so depressing. I pretty much just sit here, cry, and feel like a waste of a human being all day long. I told people I developed a social anxiety disorder and that's why I don't go out anymore, but it's a lie. My dad doesn't understand why I'm afraid to go apply for jobs, and I can't just sit in my room forever.
I'm so afraid I'm going to just drop dead one day because sometimes it really feels like I'm dying. I'm pretty sure that whatever is wrong with my brain is REALLY bad, and I'm terrified of having surgery done on my brain, so I keep putting off telling people what's going on. I don't know what to do/ I hate my life and myself. I feel so stuck and hopeless."
I'm really sorry that this is so long, but I do hope someone can read it and give me some much-needed input.
"How do I go about breaking the news to people in my life that I'm, well, a moron?
A lot of people in my life think I'm a really smart person because I made As in almost every single class I ever took while in school and am, according to some people at least, fairly well spoken.
Thing is, though, I've actually done probably the stupidest thing for the past about 8 years of my life. I've been getting progressively sicker and haven't seen a doctor for it out of fear and haven't really told anyone...I mean, I've told people I get dizzy and headaches a lot, but that's just about 2% of all of the problems I've developed, and no one really took me seriously after a while because the complaints were so frequent.
I think I have a brain tumor or an aneurysm. Obviously I can't be certain, but honestly, there aren't too many other conditions that could explain all of the neurological issues I have. I have this one spot on the back of my head that hurts REALLY REALLY bad all of the time. Sometimes the pain is worse than other times, but it pretty much hurts every second that I'm awake. I have serious difficulties concentrating on anything. Sometimes I have these episodes where it feels like all of the blood is draining from my brain and I'm about to black out. I get dizzy randomly. I have no balance...I feel like I'm about to fall half of the time. I have serious trouble remembering words...there are so many times when I sit there going, "...oh, what's that thing called?" about basic things, like, I couldn't remember the name of an elliptical the other day. Recently, I've had this 24/7 ringing sound in my ear that will not let up. It often feels as though there's liquid swooshing around in my skull. Sometimes I start feeling like all of my senses are dulled and almost like I'm not really in my body b/c I can barely feel anything. Sometimes my skull goes numb. It's really, really difficult to explain. I just know that my body feels like a torture chamber.
It's gotten so bad to the point that I'm afraid to go out in public b/c sometimes my mind just goes blank and I get really disoriented feeling. I just sit in my bedroom all day long; it's so depressing. I pretty much just sit here, cry, and feel like a waste of a human being all day long. I told people I developed a social anxiety disorder and that's why I don't go out anymore, but it's a lie. My dad doesn't understand why I'm afraid to go apply for jobs, and I can't just sit in my room forever.
I'm so afraid I'm going to just drop dead one day because sometimes it really feels like I'm dying. I'm pretty sure that whatever is wrong with my brain is REALLY bad, and I'm terrified of having surgery done on my brain, so I keep putting off telling people what's going on. I don't know what to do/ I hate my life and myself. I feel so stuck and hopeless."
I'm really sorry that this is so long, but I do hope someone can read it and give me some much-needed input.
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