Just need to share that I am at an emotional LOW. 5 months ago...had the girl...had the kids...had it all except didnt see it THEN. Fast Forward...a month ago and continuing on have a relapse...
Went to Neuro on Wed..will have tests/mri/etc tuesday. But what's the point....will still be alone...will be numb/tingling etc... Not a great date....feeling very lonely and alone. The other night mentioned to my bitter parents about "me being afraid"...what did I get after 30 years of taking care of them financially..."Grow Up and face It". Huh??
Now scared of not caring about tomorrow....thinking about things I shouldnt be thinking about!!!
2 months ago..I had hope...a month now...my sx make only remind me of what I HAVE and don't have.
Scared....alone....calculating all the wrong things in my mind!!
Best to all,
Buzzing
Went to Neuro on Wed..will have tests/mri/etc tuesday. But what's the point....will still be alone...will be numb/tingling etc... Not a great date....feeling very lonely and alone. The other night mentioned to my bitter parents about "me being afraid"...what did I get after 30 years of taking care of them financially..."Grow Up and face It". Huh??
Now scared of not caring about tomorrow....thinking about things I shouldnt be thinking about!!!
2 months ago..I had hope...a month now...my sx make only remind me of what I HAVE and don't have.
Scared....alone....calculating all the wrong things in my mind!!
Best to all,
Buzzing
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