Don't know where to start.
I taught for 22 years and just now quit.
I keep saying I quit because it sounds like I gave up if I say I was granted my disability retirement.
It is so difficult to speak in the past tense about my teaching.
I had been struggling at school for several years. My teaching partners had picked up much of the traveling for me.
My district altered the lighting in my room to help with my vision as well.
I had an alarm set on my phone and slept every day while my students were at lunch and recess.
I went in every weekend for hours to try to prepare and keep up.
It was just too much.
My falls were too frequent: in the hall, the parking lot, computer lab, in the classroom.
I got hurt. But my biggest concern was falling and hurting a student or having them see me get injured.
The one huge issue I have had is that I taught primary aged children. I was still teaching and trying to make it through.
My letter of approval came over Christmas break. It stated that I needed to stop all teaching service by the end of the month. School wasn't in session and would not resume until January. I didn't get to say good bye to my class or have any closure with them. This was very difficult for me.
My friends boxed up my classroom in about two hours and my husband hauled it home in a truck. It's in my basement.
It just doesn't seem like reality. To add insults to injury. My neuro took me of Tec at the beginning of Dec because of low WBC. So, of course, with this extra stress I am in a relapse.
ADD, even with 22 years of service, I only will receive between 47 or 48 % of my salary. The insurance is ridiculously priced as well.
I keep thinking of units I wanted to teach. Seeing things or hearing about tidbits that I want to pass along to little ears.
It's so hard to not be a teacher.
I really don't feel relieved over the approval yet. I know it was the right thing to do. My doctor, family, and friends have been urging my to do it. Its just a huge concession to make.
Thank you for letting my vent a little.
Take Care,
Denise
I taught for 22 years and just now quit.
I keep saying I quit because it sounds like I gave up if I say I was granted my disability retirement.
It is so difficult to speak in the past tense about my teaching.
I had been struggling at school for several years. My teaching partners had picked up much of the traveling for me.
My district altered the lighting in my room to help with my vision as well.
I had an alarm set on my phone and slept every day while my students were at lunch and recess.
I went in every weekend for hours to try to prepare and keep up.
It was just too much.
My falls were too frequent: in the hall, the parking lot, computer lab, in the classroom.
I got hurt. But my biggest concern was falling and hurting a student or having them see me get injured.
The one huge issue I have had is that I taught primary aged children. I was still teaching and trying to make it through.
My letter of approval came over Christmas break. It stated that I needed to stop all teaching service by the end of the month. School wasn't in session and would not resume until January. I didn't get to say good bye to my class or have any closure with them. This was very difficult for me.
My friends boxed up my classroom in about two hours and my husband hauled it home in a truck. It's in my basement.
It just doesn't seem like reality. To add insults to injury. My neuro took me of Tec at the beginning of Dec because of low WBC. So, of course, with this extra stress I am in a relapse.
ADD, even with 22 years of service, I only will receive between 47 or 48 % of my salary. The insurance is ridiculously priced as well.
I keep thinking of units I wanted to teach. Seeing things or hearing about tidbits that I want to pass along to little ears.
It's so hard to not be a teacher.
I really don't feel relieved over the approval yet. I know it was the right thing to do. My doctor, family, and friends have been urging my to do it. Its just a huge concession to make.
Thank you for letting my vent a little.
Take Care,
Denise
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