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I have conversion disorder. I had an abdominal surgery and 2 days later I began trembling head to toe and stuttering, when it didn't stop I was hospitalized. My neck and my left arm kept spasming, I couldn't talk without stuttering, and walking felt like I was moving in jello. I felt fine, no pain, no numbness or tingling. I just couldn't control my body when I tried to anything other than lay quietly.
It was worse when someone would talk to me or I tried to do something, like walk. My eyes weren't dilating together. I even had the classic "hysterical gait" where my torso would wildly rock back and forth while I walked.
I did notice the symptoms were inconsistent, like I could move my legs easily in bed but had trouble lifting them when asked on command. I did have an MRI and an EEG and they were negative. Everyone agreed it was conversion disorder.
My sticking point is that I am not depressed, anxious, or stressed. I have a history of postpartum depression which is handled quite nicely with antidepressants. I have a history of sexual abuse but I went to therapy, and I can think about it and it doesn't upset me. I don't seek attention from doctors, and the whole time I was hospitalized I was quite eager to go home because overall that was my most stressful experience so far in life.
I have nothing to gain by having conversion disorder, and when I try to talk about this with my doctor she tells me denial is normal. I am a bit frustrated. I have no issue going to therapy and working on any issues, I look at it as a great opportunity.
The reason I am posting here is that it has been suggested I may be in the early stages of MS, and being a 30something white woman makes it easier to dismiss me. I am torn, I would say 90% believes and accepts the conversion diagnosis, but 10% thinks it would be prudent to consider the alternatives.
Once I was discharged, almost all the symptoms went away except for some fatigue and occasional stumbling over words. I thought it was gone for good, but last week when it got warm again my neck spasming, walking in jello, and stuttering came back in full force and lasted for a couple days. And my left hand went numb. Once again, I have no idea.
I am seeing a neurologist at the end of the month. Would it be a good idea to request a full cervical and spinal MRI and EP testing to be done? The other odd symptoms that have been going on is my vision dims, and I have frequent migraines.
Would it also be a good idea to track symptoms? My PCP is absolutely convinced I have conversion disorder and will not let me voice any doubts, so I am feeling somewhat defeated.
Thanks in advance. You seem like a great supportive group.
I have conversion disorder. I had an abdominal surgery and 2 days later I began trembling head to toe and stuttering, when it didn't stop I was hospitalized. My neck and my left arm kept spasming, I couldn't talk without stuttering, and walking felt like I was moving in jello. I felt fine, no pain, no numbness or tingling. I just couldn't control my body when I tried to anything other than lay quietly.
It was worse when someone would talk to me or I tried to do something, like walk. My eyes weren't dilating together. I even had the classic "hysterical gait" where my torso would wildly rock back and forth while I walked.
I did notice the symptoms were inconsistent, like I could move my legs easily in bed but had trouble lifting them when asked on command. I did have an MRI and an EEG and they were negative. Everyone agreed it was conversion disorder.
My sticking point is that I am not depressed, anxious, or stressed. I have a history of postpartum depression which is handled quite nicely with antidepressants. I have a history of sexual abuse but I went to therapy, and I can think about it and it doesn't upset me. I don't seek attention from doctors, and the whole time I was hospitalized I was quite eager to go home because overall that was my most stressful experience so far in life.
I have nothing to gain by having conversion disorder, and when I try to talk about this with my doctor she tells me denial is normal. I am a bit frustrated. I have no issue going to therapy and working on any issues, I look at it as a great opportunity.
The reason I am posting here is that it has been suggested I may be in the early stages of MS, and being a 30something white woman makes it easier to dismiss me. I am torn, I would say 90% believes and accepts the conversion diagnosis, but 10% thinks it would be prudent to consider the alternatives.
Once I was discharged, almost all the symptoms went away except for some fatigue and occasional stumbling over words. I thought it was gone for good, but last week when it got warm again my neck spasming, walking in jello, and stuttering came back in full force and lasted for a couple days. And my left hand went numb. Once again, I have no idea.
I am seeing a neurologist at the end of the month. Would it be a good idea to request a full cervical and spinal MRI and EP testing to be done? The other odd symptoms that have been going on is my vision dims, and I have frequent migraines.
Would it also be a good idea to track symptoms? My PCP is absolutely convinced I have conversion disorder and will not let me voice any doubts, so I am feeling somewhat defeated.
Thanks in advance. You seem like a great supportive group.
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