Hi,
I apologize for starting a new post. I'm new to the site and have a lot of cognitive issues so I hope its okay that I started a new thread.
My name is Gary and I'm 26 years old from ILLinois but originally from Maryland. I have never been sick until I moved here to this toxic state. I have Tourette Syndrome and have anxiety and have dealt with some OCD in the past. This stuff I have been dealing with recently is really different. I have over 48 symptoms so I won't name them all but some of them include: stabbing, biting, itching, buzzing sensations, headaches that burn, I have a B12 deficiency, drop foot, my symptoms get worse with heat (bathing, showers etc) internal heat (male hot flashes?) trouble swallowing, and a whole bunch of other symptoms that I don't have the time to list out. I've had a TON of testing done - all of which gets me NOWHERE! I had a spinal tap that showed O-bands in both my serum and CSF so my neuro says its not MS. He says its only MS if its in one and not the other. I forget which one. My mother comes with me to my appointments and she printed out something that proves that 40% of people with PPMS have o-bands in both serum and CSF. He agreed and said "oh you don't want that."I have a couple lesions on my brain...I think 2-4 but he says they are not "white and fluffy" like a typical MS lesion so therefore I don't have MS. He also said if the spinal tap came back showing any bands, that I definitely have MS. So then it came back showing o-bands and he says I don't have it. He's not consistent with anything he says or does. He's a heck of a nice guy, great personality and we connect on a personal level. However, he's not cutting it as my DOCTOR. I know people with MS have B12 deficiencies and all my symptoms match up with MS, I feel like crap all the time and I'm going downhill very fast.
My fear is that I have PPMS and according to the symptoms of PPMS, I do. I ask my doctor about it and he says "oh you don't want that." Well no kidding! I don't want anything! I prefer to be healthy but how about if I have something you don't ignore it just because "I don't want that." Does anyone want any of their health problems? Do people want cancer, MS, anxiety, Vitamin deficiencies or any other problem? I don't think anyone wants any health problems. He's of a foreign descent so there is a language and communication barrier there. I love him to death but he's not a good doctor and he's ignoring the facts. I know doctors rely heavily on MRI to diagnose MS and although I don't have a 'clean MRI' its not good enough for him to diagnose me.
I just know I'm too young to feel like this and I'm so tired of getting the run around. I have had MRI's out the wazoo...lumbar, cervical, thoracic, brain...with and without contrast...CT's, and a ton of other testing not related to MS. I also have high calcium which has been high for over 2 years and I wonder about parathyroid even though my PTH is "normal." I know all about that but what confuses me is that some of my symptoms I don't believe belong to MS so it makes me think parathyroid. Then there are things I deal with that don't fit with parathyroid so I think MS. For example, drop foot is an MS thing - not parathyroid. My anxiety is off-the-hook severe and that is a parathyroid thing and NOT MS. If it were much worse I wouldn't be leaving the house and I fear I'm not far from that now. I'm not sure if horrific anxiety is an MS symptom or not. From what I understand, its a symptom but not on the level that I have it.
I go downhill so quickly with each week that passes. That makes me believe I have PPMS but I'm not sure if thats possible to go downhill that quickly. I've only been SUFFERING for about a year now. Most recently I've started with swallowing problems, choking on my saliva/getting caught in my throat and interrupts my speech etc. I'm afraid to eat anymore. My cognitive problems are so bad, that I can't think for myself, defend myself etc. I go to the doctor and can't think of what plagues me every day! My memory is so horrible and its frustrating as heck. Its mainly my short term memory that is god-awful. Then I've been having these 'blank-out' moments where I don't know what I'm doing, or where I'm going, what I'm supposed to get in the grocery store etc. This is all so frustrating. I have my mom who I live with and she's a fantastic support system. However, this consumes me, my life and my every thought and conversation topic. I just want an answer so I can shut up about my health and talk about normal things. I need some kind of outlet to vent and talk with other people which is why my mother suggested I come here for support.
Does anyone have any advice...any input? I'm sorry for the lengthy post. I will try to shorten them from here on out.
Thank you soooo much for listening to me vent and for taking the time to read this. I truly appreciate it.
Hope to hear from some other members soon.
Gary
I apologize for starting a new post. I'm new to the site and have a lot of cognitive issues so I hope its okay that I started a new thread.
My name is Gary and I'm 26 years old from ILLinois but originally from Maryland. I have never been sick until I moved here to this toxic state. I have Tourette Syndrome and have anxiety and have dealt with some OCD in the past. This stuff I have been dealing with recently is really different. I have over 48 symptoms so I won't name them all but some of them include: stabbing, biting, itching, buzzing sensations, headaches that burn, I have a B12 deficiency, drop foot, my symptoms get worse with heat (bathing, showers etc) internal heat (male hot flashes?) trouble swallowing, and a whole bunch of other symptoms that I don't have the time to list out. I've had a TON of testing done - all of which gets me NOWHERE! I had a spinal tap that showed O-bands in both my serum and CSF so my neuro says its not MS. He says its only MS if its in one and not the other. I forget which one. My mother comes with me to my appointments and she printed out something that proves that 40% of people with PPMS have o-bands in both serum and CSF. He agreed and said "oh you don't want that."I have a couple lesions on my brain...I think 2-4 but he says they are not "white and fluffy" like a typical MS lesion so therefore I don't have MS. He also said if the spinal tap came back showing any bands, that I definitely have MS. So then it came back showing o-bands and he says I don't have it. He's not consistent with anything he says or does. He's a heck of a nice guy, great personality and we connect on a personal level. However, he's not cutting it as my DOCTOR. I know people with MS have B12 deficiencies and all my symptoms match up with MS, I feel like crap all the time and I'm going downhill very fast.
My fear is that I have PPMS and according to the symptoms of PPMS, I do. I ask my doctor about it and he says "oh you don't want that." Well no kidding! I don't want anything! I prefer to be healthy but how about if I have something you don't ignore it just because "I don't want that." Does anyone want any of their health problems? Do people want cancer, MS, anxiety, Vitamin deficiencies or any other problem? I don't think anyone wants any health problems. He's of a foreign descent so there is a language and communication barrier there. I love him to death but he's not a good doctor and he's ignoring the facts. I know doctors rely heavily on MRI to diagnose MS and although I don't have a 'clean MRI' its not good enough for him to diagnose me.
I just know I'm too young to feel like this and I'm so tired of getting the run around. I have had MRI's out the wazoo...lumbar, cervical, thoracic, brain...with and without contrast...CT's, and a ton of other testing not related to MS. I also have high calcium which has been high for over 2 years and I wonder about parathyroid even though my PTH is "normal." I know all about that but what confuses me is that some of my symptoms I don't believe belong to MS so it makes me think parathyroid. Then there are things I deal with that don't fit with parathyroid so I think MS. For example, drop foot is an MS thing - not parathyroid. My anxiety is off-the-hook severe and that is a parathyroid thing and NOT MS. If it were much worse I wouldn't be leaving the house and I fear I'm not far from that now. I'm not sure if horrific anxiety is an MS symptom or not. From what I understand, its a symptom but not on the level that I have it.
I go downhill so quickly with each week that passes. That makes me believe I have PPMS but I'm not sure if thats possible to go downhill that quickly. I've only been SUFFERING for about a year now. Most recently I've started with swallowing problems, choking on my saliva/getting caught in my throat and interrupts my speech etc. I'm afraid to eat anymore. My cognitive problems are so bad, that I can't think for myself, defend myself etc. I go to the doctor and can't think of what plagues me every day! My memory is so horrible and its frustrating as heck. Its mainly my short term memory that is god-awful. Then I've been having these 'blank-out' moments where I don't know what I'm doing, or where I'm going, what I'm supposed to get in the grocery store etc. This is all so frustrating. I have my mom who I live with and she's a fantastic support system. However, this consumes me, my life and my every thought and conversation topic. I just want an answer so I can shut up about my health and talk about normal things. I need some kind of outlet to vent and talk with other people which is why my mother suggested I come here for support.
Does anyone have any advice...any input? I'm sorry for the lengthy post. I will try to shorten them from here on out.
Thank you soooo much for listening to me vent and for taking the time to read this. I truly appreciate it.
Hope to hear from some other members soon.
Gary
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