Hi, I need some help. My husband was just diagnosed with MS. We are both in our early 30's. Lately I feel like nothing I do or say brings him anything but frustration and annoyance. He is a very calm person by nature but has been yelling and arguing and being generally mean lately.
I don't know what to do. This is breaking my heart. He refuses to go to therapy alone or with me because "he has no need for it.
He has lesions all over his brain and spinal cord so I am wondering if the frontal lobe lesions could cause him to be a different person to me after over 9 years of being together. Or is it the normal grieving process of his diagnosis? Or both perhaps? I try to be patient and explain away my broken heart with "he cant help it" but at some time I cant feel like a worthless nothing all the time.
He misunderstands everything I say and we can not even hold a normal conversation without it turning quickly into something negative. I feel like I am out of ideas. I should mention I have sought help and am taking care of myself alone with no support from him.
I should also mention we both still work full time, so it is not as if he is bedridden or immobile adding to psychological and physiological symptoms. He is active and still fly fishes, skis, rock climbs and mountain bikes regularly. So he is very healthy and getting good endorphins and other hormones through his lifestyle on a very regular basis (at least every other day but often every day)
Anyhow, who is this person in my house and where did my husband go. I feel like all my hopes and dreams have been flushed down the toilet and am having trouble feeling like I have a purpose. I wish there was a wand involved in all this pain. Any replies would be greatly appreciated and I am open to all ideas.
Thank you
jmm
I don't know what to do. This is breaking my heart. He refuses to go to therapy alone or with me because "he has no need for it.
He has lesions all over his brain and spinal cord so I am wondering if the frontal lobe lesions could cause him to be a different person to me after over 9 years of being together. Or is it the normal grieving process of his diagnosis? Or both perhaps? I try to be patient and explain away my broken heart with "he cant help it" but at some time I cant feel like a worthless nothing all the time.
He misunderstands everything I say and we can not even hold a normal conversation without it turning quickly into something negative. I feel like I am out of ideas. I should mention I have sought help and am taking care of myself alone with no support from him.
I should also mention we both still work full time, so it is not as if he is bedridden or immobile adding to psychological and physiological symptoms. He is active and still fly fishes, skis, rock climbs and mountain bikes regularly. So he is very healthy and getting good endorphins and other hormones through his lifestyle on a very regular basis (at least every other day but often every day)
Anyhow, who is this person in my house and where did my husband go. I feel like all my hopes and dreams have been flushed down the toilet and am having trouble feeling like I have a purpose. I wish there was a wand involved in all this pain. Any replies would be greatly appreciated and I am open to all ideas.
Thank you
jmm
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