When I was a little girl, I always wondered how much information our brains can hold. I think I found the answer. I am lucky in the fact that my MS is "mild". However, my biggest complaint has always been brain fog. I finally figured out a way to describe what I am feeling to my doctor. I am going to tell him that I feel like my brain is full and it feels like I can no longer accept any new information. I've resorted to carrying a notepad and jotting down things that I need to do or don't want to forget.
Can anyone else relate? It's so frustrating and I didn't want to say anything to my DH. He's scared enough as it is. I know that he has become aware of my confusion. He will say something and I will continue to question it until I fully understand. There's been a time or two when he got frustrated with the questions, but I melted down last time and I think he kind of understands now. What he or anyone else, even my coworkers, doesn't know is how scared I am. When I have to do a new report or something that I haven't done in a while at work, I feel like my thoughts about it are like scrambled eggs. I try and take my time and I feel better once the task is completed, but there is always a doubt in the back of my mind if I did it correctly or not. I'm always second guessing myself.
Thanks for "listening". I just needed to vent to people who will understand.
Carol
Can anyone else relate? It's so frustrating and I didn't want to say anything to my DH. He's scared enough as it is. I know that he has become aware of my confusion. He will say something and I will continue to question it until I fully understand. There's been a time or two when he got frustrated with the questions, but I melted down last time and I think he kind of understands now. What he or anyone else, even my coworkers, doesn't know is how scared I am. When I have to do a new report or something that I haven't done in a while at work, I feel like my thoughts about it are like scrambled eggs. I try and take my time and I feel better once the task is completed, but there is always a doubt in the back of my mind if I did it correctly or not. I'm always second guessing myself.
Thanks for "listening". I just needed to vent to people who will understand.
Carol
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