A bit cynical--but seriously need ideas, your stories, etc.
I finished tapering off Wellbutrin (5 mgs was the last level) because it was making me terrified, negative manic/frantic, out of control. Like many SSRIs I've been on the last 15 years. The result has been significant reduction of my OCD.
Which faces me with a whole other side of me that's been in moth balls thanks to OCD and above-mentioned meds.
I've been taking Xanax 1/16th of a mg once or twice a day to deal with the anxiety this transition brings on. X makes me feel even more depersonalized than I already
am--I feel unprotected and high and fearful of my actions as I cannot think straight.
Today was cranial MRI, and Xanax got me thru that. Then I went home and my center of control just flew out the window. Very unsafe feeling, more than just drowsy.
So I took regular, dye-free Benadryl to calm down, 1/2 capsule. Then I felt drunk and again, unsafe.
I am now depersonalized as heck: lack of grounding, lack of self. A non-self can't make decisions or think about itself very clearly.
I see the psychiatrist December 1st, and my home visiting nurse talks to me on the phone through this--she says the med doses themselves are not harmful, but to ride it out day by day till the appt. I'm not about to ask the shrink for meds that over the past 15 years have made me even more depersonalized than I've been all my life.
Scary not being in charge. No wonder DSM says depersonalization is not treatable with meds. And all this time they gave me SSRIs for depression. HELP
I finished tapering off Wellbutrin (5 mgs was the last level) because it was making me terrified, negative manic/frantic, out of control. Like many SSRIs I've been on the last 15 years. The result has been significant reduction of my OCD.
Which faces me with a whole other side of me that's been in moth balls thanks to OCD and above-mentioned meds.
I've been taking Xanax 1/16th of a mg once or twice a day to deal with the anxiety this transition brings on. X makes me feel even more depersonalized than I already
am--I feel unprotected and high and fearful of my actions as I cannot think straight.
Today was cranial MRI, and Xanax got me thru that. Then I went home and my center of control just flew out the window. Very unsafe feeling, more than just drowsy.
So I took regular, dye-free Benadryl to calm down, 1/2 capsule. Then I felt drunk and again, unsafe.
I am now depersonalized as heck: lack of grounding, lack of self. A non-self can't make decisions or think about itself very clearly.
I see the psychiatrist December 1st, and my home visiting nurse talks to me on the phone through this--she says the med doses themselves are not harmful, but to ride it out day by day till the appt. I'm not about to ask the shrink for meds that over the past 15 years have made me even more depersonalized than I've been all my life.
Scary not being in charge. No wonder DSM says depersonalization is not treatable with meds. And all this time they gave me SSRIs for depression. HELP
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