Scared, very scared

[babymonkey]

Here's the deal...I was dx'ed with MS, also have Avascular Necrosis in all my major joints with multiple joint replacements and ankle fusions.After losing my sister in a car accident, I have been in a severe depression along with social anxiety disorder, agoraphobia, etc. For well over a year ago, I started having an overwhelming craving to drink bleach. I swear, I do not know how I have fought it this long. Everyday, I fight this urge. I use pure bleach to clean ANYTHING just so I can get that "high" that smelling bleach gives me.

My question is this, does anyone of you know anything about this? Is there any connection between this and MS or any of my issues such as the severe depression?

I do know that pregnant women can have Picca and crave really off the wall stuff, but I am not pregnant.

Any input would be wonderful.

Thanks!

[Sequoia]

Are you on an antidepressant? If not, it sounds like you really need one; and if you're already on one, you may need to up the dosage or switch to something more effective.

Regardless of the source of your attraction to drinking bleach, the outcome if you gave in to it in a weak moment would be disastrous!

Please, please get some help right away! Of course keep talking to us here about it too, but call a doctor or therapist.

Concerned hugs,

Sequoia

[nightflyer]

I totally agree...see a therapist about the bleach...or atleast a GP to deal with the depression effectively! Stay away from the bleach!!! If you drank it you'd be dead, or at the very least, your insides would be severely damaged! Don't be huffing it either! Keep us posted! We will be here for you.

[Samantha Burns]

Hang in there

Stress & MS seems to go hand in hand like conjoined twins. Depression is a perfectly normal response to having a degenerative disease. Add in constant pain (or lots of it &/or both) & it is a recipe for depression. I would recommend skipping the therapist & going to a physcholgist (sp) who treats other patients w/ degenerative diseases. Also the shrink can prescribe antidepressants & a therapist can not. A pain specialist can help you with the pain. It might be important to use the words 'considering suicide' with your doctors. My neuro was thick & did not help me when I said 'it hurts so bad I want to die.' I wish you the best of luck & happiness. Also I would note how awfully suicides gone bad can go.

[Sequoia]

Just a note; therapists routinely refer patients in need of medication to psychiatrists who specialize in prescribing medication. You get a brief consultation with the psychiatrist for that purpose, but your ongoing support comes from the therapist.