When the day comes when I check out it won't be because I'm depressed or forlorn or sad, even though I might be all those things at the time, they will not be the deciding factors behind my decision. *
Rather it will be because quite simply I've had enough, enough of struggling, enough of not having *a life, enough of feeling diminished as a human being, enough of being a spectator of life and not an active participant, enough of existing rather than living, enough of the humiliation, enough of feeling a freak of human nature...just enough of existing from day to day. *
The only thing I have to look forward to is things getting worst. *So, for me it will have been a thought out, calculated and planned decision and one made from thought rather than emotion.
Rather it will be because quite simply I've had enough, enough of struggling, enough of not having *a life, enough of feeling diminished as a human being, enough of being a spectator of life and not an active participant, enough of existing rather than living, enough of the humiliation, enough of feeling a freak of human nature...just enough of existing from day to day. *
The only thing I have to look forward to is things getting worst. *So, for me it will have been a thought out, calculated and planned decision and one made from thought rather than emotion.
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