I started w/ the dx and being sad, then it went to it is what it is, then optimistic, now obsessive. Obsessive to the point that I am searching everywhere for answers. Maybe a different doc? Maybe they will know more or know of some miracle drug or....who knows. I know there is no miracle here. My DH finally sat me down the other day and told me..."hun, you have ms, there is no cure, no one can tell you anything that you want to hear." "It is what it is and we will just have to deal w/it as it comes" I cried so hard when he said that, because I know he is right.
They think I may be progressive but they need to give it more time to see where my disease course is going. My DH says that "we just need to keep moving forward, and not worry about where this is taking me, to make the best of each and everyday and just take it as it comes...as there is nothing we/anyone can do about it."
Oddly enough, he's right. Sometimes we just have to play the cards we are dealt and push forward the best that we can.
Becoming completely obsessed over this does no one any good. The past week has been a horrific week for me and I think I just went a tad overboard. I have told my friends that if I start rampaging about ms to please try and change the subject so that I'm not dwelling on this. I don't want to live my life around ms.
It is hard because I have so many symptoms all in such a short time that I am more or less just scared of what is to come. I hate this disease and what it is taking from me. I am too young for this. I just pray that I can make it through my children out of school before I really get bad...but the way it's looking...it's not going to happen.
13 years is a long time. When we are talking a progressive disease that is moving this fast. UGH...I don't want this!!
They think I may be progressive but they need to give it more time to see where my disease course is going. My DH says that "we just need to keep moving forward, and not worry about where this is taking me, to make the best of each and everyday and just take it as it comes...as there is nothing we/anyone can do about it."
Oddly enough, he's right. Sometimes we just have to play the cards we are dealt and push forward the best that we can.
Becoming completely obsessed over this does no one any good. The past week has been a horrific week for me and I think I just went a tad overboard. I have told my friends that if I start rampaging about ms to please try and change the subject so that I'm not dwelling on this. I don't want to live my life around ms.
It is hard because I have so many symptoms all in such a short time that I am more or less just scared of what is to come. I hate this disease and what it is taking from me. I am too young for this. I just pray that I can make it through my children out of school before I really get bad...but the way it's looking...it's not going to happen.
13 years is a long time. When we are talking a progressive disease that is moving this fast. UGH...I don't want this!!
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