Although I have had symptoms since 1985 I was not diagnosed until 2003. I so miss the person I used to be. I was an apartment manager and used to run up and down stairs to apartments. Clean when tenants moved out. Help my elderly tenants with things like taking them to the Dr., move their furniture etc. Keep the grandkids, take them to the park etc. Now I feel like a nobody!!!
As I sit here typing, I hurt all over, am always stiff, sooo tired, head feels crazy and when I get ready to get out of this chair I will have to slowly move around, stand and wait for my legs to get in the right position to move before I take a step.
I have progressed in the last year and am so depressed. I guess today when my daughter was telling me she was looking at 2 options for the kids daycare this summer it just really hit me. I feel so bad cause I can't keep them but my body just won't let me. But then last year I did keep them and struggled cause I really wasn't able and it seemed nobody understood that I wasn't. Although they seem to understand now I still fell so bad about it.
I guess I am just having a little pity party today and that seems to be happening more often lately too. I do know I could be a lot worse off than I am but I am still missing my life as it use to be. I am only 53 and feel like 100. Sorry so long but thanks for listening.
As I sit here typing, I hurt all over, am always stiff, sooo tired, head feels crazy and when I get ready to get out of this chair I will have to slowly move around, stand and wait for my legs to get in the right position to move before I take a step.
I have progressed in the last year and am so depressed. I guess today when my daughter was telling me she was looking at 2 options for the kids daycare this summer it just really hit me. I feel so bad cause I can't keep them but my body just won't let me. But then last year I did keep them and struggled cause I really wasn't able and it seemed nobody understood that I wasn't. Although they seem to understand now I still fell so bad about it.
I guess I am just having a little pity party today and that seems to be happening more often lately too. I do know I could be a lot worse off than I am but I am still missing my life as it use to be. I am only 53 and feel like 100. Sorry so long but thanks for listening.
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