Due to having some cog fog, I sometimes talk to myself. It helps me remember what I am doing in my fast pace, stressful job (I didn't realize anyone noticed until it was pointed out). Well, of course, I tend to get on people's nerves. I've even been called in to my manager's office and told I have to stop. I try so hard to do the best job I can do. I am so embarrassed. I cried all weekend. I feel stupid. I am now using headphones to listen to music (when I'm not on the phone). I find it keeps me from talking out loud.
So, here I sit, at my desk, feeling like an idiot and trying not to bother anyone. I have zero self esteem due to some mental and physical abuse from my narcissistic mom, so I tend to lean towards hating myself as I am right now. Thanks for reading and letting me get my feelings out.
So, here I sit, at my desk, feeling like an idiot and trying not to bother anyone. I have zero self esteem due to some mental and physical abuse from my narcissistic mom, so I tend to lean towards hating myself as I am right now. Thanks for reading and letting me get my feelings out.
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