As the tittle states this is for those members who remember my story. I saw one of those dear MS videos and decided to give it a try. Please no judgment and I really don't care if you think I have MS or not. I just wanted to share. It goes...
Dear MS,
I don't like you, you've stalked me since I was a child. Poking through the shadows to show yourself without me realizing it. Waiting for the perfect opportunity for your attack. You knew I was vulnerable, and you were cunning and patient. You waited for my life to be the best it could be to cut me down in my prime. You stole everything from me, my mind, my legs, and my family. But now I'm writing you to tell you I'm not going to let you do this to me anymore. You are in MY body and I'm taking it back. We may have to share this space but you're in my house and you must obey my rules. I'm taking my life back from you! No more will you torment my mind. I don't like you.
Love, Crazyguy
I want to share that writing this letter was a little emotional for me. But also liberating at the same time. I think a problem for me was that I was associating MS and myself as one entity. I don't like MS, and in turn I didn't like myself.
In a way though separating myself from MS sort of explains the pain I felt when either my doctors couldn't find anything or were lying to me. You can decide which. But looking back I see myself as a rape victim or a victim of a crime trying to plead their case and noone believes them. No offense to anyone who actually has gone through that. And not that I'm saying that its the same experience. Thats just my subjective opinion of how I feel.
Anyway I felt writing was the first step and now I feel like sharing. Keep fighting MS warriors!
Crazyguy
Dear MS,
I don't like you, you've stalked me since I was a child. Poking through the shadows to show yourself without me realizing it. Waiting for the perfect opportunity for your attack. You knew I was vulnerable, and you were cunning and patient. You waited for my life to be the best it could be to cut me down in my prime. You stole everything from me, my mind, my legs, and my family. But now I'm writing you to tell you I'm not going to let you do this to me anymore. You are in MY body and I'm taking it back. We may have to share this space but you're in my house and you must obey my rules. I'm taking my life back from you! No more will you torment my mind. I don't like you.
Love, Crazyguy
I want to share that writing this letter was a little emotional for me. But also liberating at the same time. I think a problem for me was that I was associating MS and myself as one entity. I don't like MS, and in turn I didn't like myself.
In a way though separating myself from MS sort of explains the pain I felt when either my doctors couldn't find anything or were lying to me. You can decide which. But looking back I see myself as a rape victim or a victim of a crime trying to plead their case and noone believes them. No offense to anyone who actually has gone through that. And not that I'm saying that its the same experience. Thats just my subjective opinion of how I feel.
Anyway I felt writing was the first step and now I feel like sharing. Keep fighting MS warriors!
Crazyguy
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