Dec 14th 2012 - the horrible event at Sandy Hook Elementary - I was sitting at a local pizza place with my kids - then 6 and 10 - and non-stop coverage was on TV when my doctor called - at 6:45 PM - never good when your doctor calls at 6:45 PM - to tell me - they don't know exactly what was going on - but that the MRI they has ordered for severe - crippling headaches showed 19+ lesions of various sizes on my brain and that I needed to follow up with a neurologist first thing on Monday - and that they had already got me an appointment with a neurologist at a local hospital.
Well - as totally freaked out that I should have been by that information - I just couldn't be - I just kept looking at my kids and watching the coverage on the TV about a bunch of Kindergarten kids being executed - and honestly... whatever - lesions on my brain - ok - my kids aren't dead... I think it's so weird that from the first notification that something was wrong - I have always had a very strange perspective on things.
Over the weekend I was watching coverage of the anniversary - and it always brings back memories of that night - the whirlwind of emotions - the inability to focus at all on my own situation - which was probably good.
All these years later - I've had some good periods and some really bad periods - some times when I felt great and some times when I didn't - but I would still take my burden over what those parents have had to face. It will always be strange to share that "anniversary" with such a horrid event - maybe it was the universes way to help me not wallow in self pity....
Anyway - thanks for letting me share...
Well - as totally freaked out that I should have been by that information - I just couldn't be - I just kept looking at my kids and watching the coverage on the TV about a bunch of Kindergarten kids being executed - and honestly... whatever - lesions on my brain - ok - my kids aren't dead... I think it's so weird that from the first notification that something was wrong - I have always had a very strange perspective on things.
Over the weekend I was watching coverage of the anniversary - and it always brings back memories of that night - the whirlwind of emotions - the inability to focus at all on my own situation - which was probably good.
All these years later - I've had some good periods and some really bad periods - some times when I felt great and some times when I didn't - but I would still take my burden over what those parents have had to face. It will always be strange to share that "anniversary" with such a horrid event - maybe it was the universes way to help me not wallow in self pity....
Anyway - thanks for letting me share...
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