I am so scared, I am SP and live on my own, no carers or live in assistance. For the most part I can manage although I can no longer walk, can only transfer from one space to another. I rely on the use of a scooter, upstairs and down and a stairlift in between.
Usually I manage okay however recently I have landed on the floor at least once a week for the past ... well since Friday the 13th (in September). Lately my leg seems to give out from under me which ends up with me saying hello to the floor yet again.
I am slowly falling apart and have become afraid of my own body. I have often thought about planning my own exit because I can’t see any alternative however I am thoroughly convinced I would mess that up completely and end up even worse off.
I live each day in fear of the next thing that will happen. I have had to call out the ambulance twice in two weeks and ask a friend to come over another time to help me up off the floor. The same thing seems to happen every year around this time, I get worse. I just don’t know what to do anymore.
Usually I manage okay however recently I have landed on the floor at least once a week for the past ... well since Friday the 13th (in September). Lately my leg seems to give out from under me which ends up with me saying hello to the floor yet again.
I am slowly falling apart and have become afraid of my own body. I have often thought about planning my own exit because I can’t see any alternative however I am thoroughly convinced I would mess that up completely and end up even worse off.
I live each day in fear of the next thing that will happen. I have had to call out the ambulance twice in two weeks and ask a friend to come over another time to help me up off the floor. The same thing seems to happen every year around this time, I get worse. I just don’t know what to do anymore.
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