Hi MS World Friends! I am so sorry to come to all of you but I am feeling so lost and my anxiety is getting the better of me. I think some of you may understand...it isn’t just one thing but the added layers over time make it seem unmanageable. Yes, I know my MS is mild and many of you have much hard problems than I do, but unfortunately I can’t seem to cope with mine.
Basically it started over a year ago with a flare and left leg weakness. Took IVSM and kept working and running a household with teens. It finally caught up to me and I went on disability in the summer due to continue leg issues - due to stomach pain and constipation. I tried going back to work....and ended up leaving my job in December...I job I absolutely loved!! Yes, I was in denial and pushing to hard to pretend like MS “didn’t have me”. But it did. Other health issues arose...none really earth shattering but added layers that has made it hard for me to cope.
In my attempt to get my body back physically, I now have a stress fracture that happened in early May. I saw the foot doctor at the end of May and he has me wearing a boot although he said I could put on my sneakers about this time. My problem is that it just doesn’t feel any better...I am afraid he missed something or I have some permanent damage to my left foot, toes and ankle.
My dear husband assures me hat it will get better but he didn’t read the reports, the xrays or visit the doc with me. Between my leg weakness and my foot/ankle pain I feel like I am losing my ability to walk. And walking was what kept me sane!!! (After giving up running and biking.).
Intellectually I know his is just a bad season...and that most likely my foot will heal. But I don’t know how to cope with this. I don’t really expect any answers...I just feel so incredibly alone.
My daughters and husband try their best to support me...but as you all know, no one really gets MS until you have it. Since leaving my job, my social interaction has significantly shrunk....friends don’t ask about MS...ever....the just tell me how good I look when I see them...and those are the good days.
Okay...his is a big time pity party...I am sorry to dump this on you all. I just needed some friends today so I don’t feel so alone and discouraged. Thank you for listening...please infinite typos...especially the missing “t”s. Lol!! I wouldn’t have made it through this past decade with MS without all of you!! 💕💕
Basically it started over a year ago with a flare and left leg weakness. Took IVSM and kept working and running a household with teens. It finally caught up to me and I went on disability in the summer due to continue leg issues - due to stomach pain and constipation. I tried going back to work....and ended up leaving my job in December...I job I absolutely loved!! Yes, I was in denial and pushing to hard to pretend like MS “didn’t have me”. But it did. Other health issues arose...none really earth shattering but added layers that has made it hard for me to cope.
In my attempt to get my body back physically, I now have a stress fracture that happened in early May. I saw the foot doctor at the end of May and he has me wearing a boot although he said I could put on my sneakers about this time. My problem is that it just doesn’t feel any better...I am afraid he missed something or I have some permanent damage to my left foot, toes and ankle.
My dear husband assures me hat it will get better but he didn’t read the reports, the xrays or visit the doc with me. Between my leg weakness and my foot/ankle pain I feel like I am losing my ability to walk. And walking was what kept me sane!!! (After giving up running and biking.).
Intellectually I know his is just a bad season...and that most likely my foot will heal. But I don’t know how to cope with this. I don’t really expect any answers...I just feel so incredibly alone.
My daughters and husband try their best to support me...but as you all know, no one really gets MS until you have it. Since leaving my job, my social interaction has significantly shrunk....friends don’t ask about MS...ever....the just tell me how good I look when I see them...and those are the good days.
Okay...his is a big time pity party...I am sorry to dump this on you all. I just needed some friends today so I don’t feel so alone and discouraged. Thank you for listening...please infinite typos...especially the missing “t”s. Lol!! I wouldn’t have made it through this past decade with MS without all of you!! 💕💕
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