I don't feel I fit in anywhere and I suffer in silence. All the time. I tell no one. I feel broken. Not only my heart but my back. I'm tired of not being able to function like a normal human being, whatever that means. It's now just the "thing" to say anymore because I don't know normal and I don't think I ever really have.
I don't know why I'm like this, but expressing these feelings makes me feel weak and scared. I feel like I'm being negative and I feel like it's gonna breed and triple in intensity by me doing so. The pain as well as negativity, that is.
After all these years, I was finally given baclofen for spasticity. My muscles are hard as a rock in my back and legs and ALL the disks in my neck are buldged, as well as half in t-spine with one herniated and buldged in lumber. The pain is unbearable right now.
I've gotten worse over the past few years because I constantly nod off as I sit in my chair and my neck and low back are suffering because of it. I'm not giving up but I'm so tired. I don't know what's worse, physical or mental fatigue. They both suck the life out of me.
This is my second day on Baclofen. Please tell me when these muscles will loosen, if at all. I have little hope but that little hope is what keeps me hanging on. I apologize ahead of time for bringing anybody down by this post. I always want to lift people up but I'm breaking inside.
I don't know why I'm like this, but expressing these feelings makes me feel weak and scared. I feel like I'm being negative and I feel like it's gonna breed and triple in intensity by me doing so. The pain as well as negativity, that is.
After all these years, I was finally given baclofen for spasticity. My muscles are hard as a rock in my back and legs and ALL the disks in my neck are buldged, as well as half in t-spine with one herniated and buldged in lumber. The pain is unbearable right now.
I've gotten worse over the past few years because I constantly nod off as I sit in my chair and my neck and low back are suffering because of it. I'm not giving up but I'm so tired. I don't know what's worse, physical or mental fatigue. They both suck the life out of me.
This is my second day on Baclofen. Please tell me when these muscles will loosen, if at all. I have little hope but that little hope is what keeps me hanging on. I apologize ahead of time for bringing anybody down by this post. I always want to lift people up but I'm breaking inside.
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