I just want to share for my future reference. A week ago my family moved me out of my apartment above the garage and made a temporary place for me in the main house master bedroom. I had been living in the apartment for about a year and LOVED IT so much. The view was beautiful (we live in the country) and I liked being elevated like that. The size was perfect. The only problem was the stairs. I knew I was having a very hard time with them - not just the physical act of walking up, but also going down was quite dangerous. I've spoke of this before.
Anyway, I am not sure if this is a fluke or not, but my poor right leg has been not "as bad" by the end of the day as it usually is. It *seems* like I am not dragging it as much, not tripping over it as much, and so on. Though I cannot walk any further and I still have obvious issues, it just seems a little bit better. My theory is that I was spending way too much of my energy on the stairs and now it's free to be used somewhere else. I'm serious when I say this: at least a few times a day I thought, "There's no way I'm making it up those stairs." I have even had to stop myself from shedding a few tears at the thought of the huge mountain in front of me. I am SO THANKFUL to not have to face that any more. And I have since discovered that the view out the big window in the master bedroom is just as lovely as the view upstairs I originally thought the exercise of going up and down the stairs was going to be good for me, however now I am sure it wasn't.
Side note: we've thought of a stair lift chair, however the stairwell is narrower than normal and we're not sure that will work. We are checking in to it for future reference.
A negative: the kitchen in the main house is so nice and big (big to me, anyway). I'm still learning where to put my things so I'm not making 20 trips here and there each time I do something in the kitchen. It's hard to get it set up right.
And the "help" part: My daughter and her little family have just moved in to my former apartment. This is also temporary. She has been helping me with things around here, so I have had a lot less to do ... which wasn't much to begin with. For the last 3 evenings I have walked up the stairs (only once the whole day), ate supper, and then came back down to my house. No cooking, no cleaning. Wow. Cooking used to be my thing. I loved it. I miss doing it - or at least I thought I missed doing it. Reality check - it's just too much for me. Now that I know what it feels like, I have really enjoyed not having to worry about what I'm going to make, if I'll be able to make it, will it wear me out, cleaning up, etc.
This is our arrangement for now. We are considering our options for the near future. I am still not sure if I have been approved for medicaid for disabled. Waiting. In the mean time, I just went ahead and contacted my original neurologist at the hospital that had the really good financial aid program. I told her I wanted to see her again. She emailed back and said I really need to just see an MS specialist. That hospital has only one MS specialist, so I hope he's a good one!!! Maybe someone knows about this: he is not accepting any new patients, however he is the doctor over the resident clinic. So, a resident will see me and the MS specialist will be there with the resident and me the whole time. Basically, I'll be seen by two doctors at once - a new guy and a long-time (4 decades and counting) MS specialist. Does anyone have experience with this? My appointment is September, 12, but if I get approved for medicaid in the mean time, I might just go to the more popular MS specialist in St Louis. We'll see.
Rambling done.
Anyway, I am not sure if this is a fluke or not, but my poor right leg has been not "as bad" by the end of the day as it usually is. It *seems* like I am not dragging it as much, not tripping over it as much, and so on. Though I cannot walk any further and I still have obvious issues, it just seems a little bit better. My theory is that I was spending way too much of my energy on the stairs and now it's free to be used somewhere else. I'm serious when I say this: at least a few times a day I thought, "There's no way I'm making it up those stairs." I have even had to stop myself from shedding a few tears at the thought of the huge mountain in front of me. I am SO THANKFUL to not have to face that any more. And I have since discovered that the view out the big window in the master bedroom is just as lovely as the view upstairs I originally thought the exercise of going up and down the stairs was going to be good for me, however now I am sure it wasn't.
Side note: we've thought of a stair lift chair, however the stairwell is narrower than normal and we're not sure that will work. We are checking in to it for future reference.
A negative: the kitchen in the main house is so nice and big (big to me, anyway). I'm still learning where to put my things so I'm not making 20 trips here and there each time I do something in the kitchen. It's hard to get it set up right.
And the "help" part: My daughter and her little family have just moved in to my former apartment. This is also temporary. She has been helping me with things around here, so I have had a lot less to do ... which wasn't much to begin with. For the last 3 evenings I have walked up the stairs (only once the whole day), ate supper, and then came back down to my house. No cooking, no cleaning. Wow. Cooking used to be my thing. I loved it. I miss doing it - or at least I thought I missed doing it. Reality check - it's just too much for me. Now that I know what it feels like, I have really enjoyed not having to worry about what I'm going to make, if I'll be able to make it, will it wear me out, cleaning up, etc.
This is our arrangement for now. We are considering our options for the near future. I am still not sure if I have been approved for medicaid for disabled. Waiting. In the mean time, I just went ahead and contacted my original neurologist at the hospital that had the really good financial aid program. I told her I wanted to see her again. She emailed back and said I really need to just see an MS specialist. That hospital has only one MS specialist, so I hope he's a good one!!! Maybe someone knows about this: he is not accepting any new patients, however he is the doctor over the resident clinic. So, a resident will see me and the MS specialist will be there with the resident and me the whole time. Basically, I'll be seen by two doctors at once - a new guy and a long-time (4 decades and counting) MS specialist. Does anyone have experience with this? My appointment is September, 12, but if I get approved for medicaid in the mean time, I might just go to the more popular MS specialist in St Louis. We'll see.
Rambling done.
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