Hi again,
Is 2.30 in morning and am am wide awake n in pain n prob stressed. Should have upped meds tonight, haven't had this problem for ages, but have had a very hectic month or so with many ups and downs. Just thought i'd defrag with you guys if you don't mind.
Ups:
Grandbaby is a joy almost 2 mths old.
Spending time with family has been nice.
Went to Pink concert with DIL ,fun.
Went fishing with hubby n caught one fish.
Weather has been lovely n cool.
Have a brand new heifer calf at our farm and some baby emus to watch.
We have gotten some clearing and and other work done at farm that has been planned for a while.
Son over seas is having a good time and is starting to look for work.
Got 2017 tax finalised.
Titre level still ok to continue Tysabri for another year.
Doc seems happy with me.
Now have new cheaper Ph n internet plans.
Employee will return end August.
Left shoulder has improved some.
We cleaned carpets in whole house.
got dishwasher working again after 4 months out of action.
Downs:
Have had a lot of pain in shoulders, that EPO cleared up before come back and haven't been able to rest them enough to let work again.
Only current employee took 3 months off and have had to cover. Pain and fatigue making this a real chore.
Hurt back while vacuuming- 4 days in LOTSA Pain.
Discomfort while travelling etc diminishes enjoyment of activities. Can't hold bub for long.
My end loader n tractor out of action for a bit.
In drought so having to buy cattle and horse feed n fix machinery. Tax return gone.
A calf died and a cow is missing.
Vit D level to low.
Memory seems worse. miss pills sometimes and pay the price.
Missed Surgeon apt to remove lesion so deferred to Sep.
Spent 5 days at 3 hospitals fighting for adequate treatment for hubby who was in intense pain with kidney stones.
Bad tinitis has become constant companion.
Had very tense day yesterday dealing with Telstra (ph's n internet) because of problems with supply and additional charges over last year. Still not all done. Causing anxiety.
I don't know some times things do just fell TOOOO hard.
I know they will probably improve and although I don't think i'm actually capable, but sometimes the desire to just stop fighting and just 'give up' is so strong.
Ah well i've had my little whinge.
Better get to work now.
thanks for listening.
Caroline.
Is 2.30 in morning and am am wide awake n in pain n prob stressed. Should have upped meds tonight, haven't had this problem for ages, but have had a very hectic month or so with many ups and downs. Just thought i'd defrag with you guys if you don't mind.
Ups:
Grandbaby is a joy almost 2 mths old.
Spending time with family has been nice.
Went to Pink concert with DIL ,fun.
Went fishing with hubby n caught one fish.
Weather has been lovely n cool.
Have a brand new heifer calf at our farm and some baby emus to watch.
We have gotten some clearing and and other work done at farm that has been planned for a while.
Son over seas is having a good time and is starting to look for work.
Got 2017 tax finalised.
Titre level still ok to continue Tysabri for another year.
Doc seems happy with me.
Now have new cheaper Ph n internet plans.
Employee will return end August.
Left shoulder has improved some.
We cleaned carpets in whole house.
got dishwasher working again after 4 months out of action.
Downs:
Have had a lot of pain in shoulders, that EPO cleared up before come back and haven't been able to rest them enough to let work again.
Only current employee took 3 months off and have had to cover. Pain and fatigue making this a real chore.
Hurt back while vacuuming- 4 days in LOTSA Pain.
Discomfort while travelling etc diminishes enjoyment of activities. Can't hold bub for long.
My end loader n tractor out of action for a bit.
In drought so having to buy cattle and horse feed n fix machinery. Tax return gone.
A calf died and a cow is missing.
Vit D level to low.
Memory seems worse. miss pills sometimes and pay the price.
Missed Surgeon apt to remove lesion so deferred to Sep.
Spent 5 days at 3 hospitals fighting for adequate treatment for hubby who was in intense pain with kidney stones.
Bad tinitis has become constant companion.
Had very tense day yesterday dealing with Telstra (ph's n internet) because of problems with supply and additional charges over last year. Still not all done. Causing anxiety.
I don't know some times things do just fell TOOOO hard.
I know they will probably improve and although I don't think i'm actually capable, but sometimes the desire to just stop fighting and just 'give up' is so strong.
Ah well i've had my little whinge.
Better get to work now.
thanks for listening.
Caroline.
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