I began having a wide range of neurological-ish symptoms about 9 years ago. I can deal with the numbness, the dizziness, the headaches, the trouble pronouncing words, the frequent urination, eve the night time hallucinations, but what I never figured out how to get by in life with are the word-finding/aphasia issues and the concentration and memory problems.
Employers all seem to demand more than I can handle. They not only want the job done right, they want it done very quickly. Most jobs require good communication abilities and being able to clearly articulate ideas in words, but I am constantly having problems remembering words when I speak or write. I also have a very difficult time concentrating and am very prone to dumb errors, like there have been dozens of times when I went shopping and came out of the store with the wrong items despite triple checking to make sure I had the right ones, and I do things a lot like putting my deodorant in the fridge because I'm so spaced out all of the time.
I have managed to get random mindless jobs here and there that allowed me to do simple tasks like basic data entry from home, but these jobs are getting rarer and rarer. I lost the last one I had back in August and have been struggling financially ever since. My father's financial assistance was the only thing keeping me afloat, and now he has been laid off and cannot find another job either after several months.
I don't know what to do. I'm going to wind up homeless. Every time I go on job sites looking for positions to apply to, I get frustrated and just start crying reading through the descriptions of jobs I'm either 100% unqualified for or know I just wouldn't be able to handle due to them involving so much verbal interaction with others. I'm a 100-lb woman, so stocking jobs that involve heavy lifting are typically out of the question. I have had several MRIs, an EEG, various blood tests (b12, hormones, thyroid, lyme, folate, vit D, iron, among others), inner ear testing, a sleep study, and probably other stuff I can't remember. All negative. Doctors say I'm crazy, make sure I drink enough water and get enough sleep and exercise, etc.
Any thoughts on jobs I can look into would be appreciated. I feel so hopeless and am such a burden.
Employers all seem to demand more than I can handle. They not only want the job done right, they want it done very quickly. Most jobs require good communication abilities and being able to clearly articulate ideas in words, but I am constantly having problems remembering words when I speak or write. I also have a very difficult time concentrating and am very prone to dumb errors, like there have been dozens of times when I went shopping and came out of the store with the wrong items despite triple checking to make sure I had the right ones, and I do things a lot like putting my deodorant in the fridge because I'm so spaced out all of the time.
I have managed to get random mindless jobs here and there that allowed me to do simple tasks like basic data entry from home, but these jobs are getting rarer and rarer. I lost the last one I had back in August and have been struggling financially ever since. My father's financial assistance was the only thing keeping me afloat, and now he has been laid off and cannot find another job either after several months.
I don't know what to do. I'm going to wind up homeless. Every time I go on job sites looking for positions to apply to, I get frustrated and just start crying reading through the descriptions of jobs I'm either 100% unqualified for or know I just wouldn't be able to handle due to them involving so much verbal interaction with others. I'm a 100-lb woman, so stocking jobs that involve heavy lifting are typically out of the question. I have had several MRIs, an EEG, various blood tests (b12, hormones, thyroid, lyme, folate, vit D, iron, among others), inner ear testing, a sleep study, and probably other stuff I can't remember. All negative. Doctors say I'm crazy, make sure I drink enough water and get enough sleep and exercise, etc.
Any thoughts on jobs I can look into would be appreciated. I feel so hopeless and am such a burden.
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