I think this post could fit in several places but I'll start here and see where it ends up.
After a long wait which I patiently endured (NOT) I got my new prescription for adderall and feel so much better and less cloudy and am out the door soon to go exercise. However it could have easily ended up badly. Because I self-medicated.
It's so easy for those of us who live with chronic disorders to cross the line beyond healthy proactiveness. We are responsible for our health (just not solely); we know how drugs affect us on a 24/7 level; we have lots of time (maybe) to go online and do research; we may have a vast array of unused bottles or prescriptions; all this knowledge and access might make us believe we deserve an honorary phd in pharmaceuticals.
On a personal level I was so frustrated with my energy level and weightgain (160) I took it upon myself to double my prozac and add more coffee. Far from feeling better I became agitated and I started having racing thoughts. So I decided to take some seroquel which can serve as an antimanic agent. I also added in some latuda bc it gives me akathesia and I thought maybe the constant desire to move would at least give some form of energy/movement. Sure it will. Compulsive uncomfortable movement.
The sad irony is that if my doctor had seen me maybe two days before he may have suspected some hypomania at the least, and may have decided not to prescribe the adderall. I told him everything up front. He agreed with the calming effects of seroquel but rightly said the prozac and latuda were not helpful which I assured him I had already stopped. He's known me for years and knows I'm more sensible than not (and probably knows I might do something stupid again) so he wrote me prescriptions and added seroquel and adderall.
In hindsight it was not worth it. And I could have easily sabotaged my well-being. Thanks to an understanding doctor I am out of my funk, am looking at my future more hopefully and looking into clinical dietician as a field. I am full of hope and feel better and am sleeping better and feeling better during the day. I don't know how long this will last but I do know I could potentially be feeling much worse, even to a dangerous extent.
So I will continue adding to my knowledge and work on healthy eating, lifestyle, vitamins, etc. I will still offer my (unsolicited) thoughts on meds but ultimately I will leave the decisions to those who have the expertise and my interests at heart.
I reached out here and elsewhere and got support in spite of my decisions and just want to say THANKS! while I rode out this mini-rollercoaster.
I hope anyone who is in a similar situation may get something useful from this post. I hope you don't get to a point where you take things into your own hands. I really hope you don't feel like things couldn't get worse. It certainly wasn't news to me but I did it anyway and am just grateful I landed where I did.
After a long wait which I patiently endured (NOT) I got my new prescription for adderall and feel so much better and less cloudy and am out the door soon to go exercise. However it could have easily ended up badly. Because I self-medicated.
It's so easy for those of us who live with chronic disorders to cross the line beyond healthy proactiveness. We are responsible for our health (just not solely); we know how drugs affect us on a 24/7 level; we have lots of time (maybe) to go online and do research; we may have a vast array of unused bottles or prescriptions; all this knowledge and access might make us believe we deserve an honorary phd in pharmaceuticals.
On a personal level I was so frustrated with my energy level and weightgain (160) I took it upon myself to double my prozac and add more coffee. Far from feeling better I became agitated and I started having racing thoughts. So I decided to take some seroquel which can serve as an antimanic agent. I also added in some latuda bc it gives me akathesia and I thought maybe the constant desire to move would at least give some form of energy/movement. Sure it will. Compulsive uncomfortable movement.
The sad irony is that if my doctor had seen me maybe two days before he may have suspected some hypomania at the least, and may have decided not to prescribe the adderall. I told him everything up front. He agreed with the calming effects of seroquel but rightly said the prozac and latuda were not helpful which I assured him I had already stopped. He's known me for years and knows I'm more sensible than not (and probably knows I might do something stupid again) so he wrote me prescriptions and added seroquel and adderall.
In hindsight it was not worth it. And I could have easily sabotaged my well-being. Thanks to an understanding doctor I am out of my funk, am looking at my future more hopefully and looking into clinical dietician as a field. I am full of hope and feel better and am sleeping better and feeling better during the day. I don't know how long this will last but I do know I could potentially be feeling much worse, even to a dangerous extent.
So I will continue adding to my knowledge and work on healthy eating, lifestyle, vitamins, etc. I will still offer my (unsolicited) thoughts on meds but ultimately I will leave the decisions to those who have the expertise and my interests at heart.
I reached out here and elsewhere and got support in spite of my decisions and just want to say THANKS! while I rode out this mini-rollercoaster.
I hope anyone who is in a similar situation may get something useful from this post. I hope you don't get to a point where you take things into your own hands. I really hope you don't feel like things couldn't get worse. It certainly wasn't news to me but I did it anyway and am just grateful I landed where I did.
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