After having one of my best weekends for a long time, (mainly thanks to my extended family) It is a good time to come out (& no I'm not suddenly gay)
I have MS, I have attempted to deal with it alone badly for seven years. In December 2015 the temporary blindness & subsequent permanent decreased vision caused by another MS attack of optic neuritis knocked the heck out of me & finally confirmed to me without any doubt I do actually have MS, you can be told things but it takes a lot sometimes to truly believe them, The courage it has taken to accept this new fact of life has been immense.
I have spent ages wallowing & processing this new realisation alone, I shouldn't have done it that way & I apologies to my friends & family for being stubborn & aloof. If people with MS don't understand it, how can I expect people without MS to understand it - without help, it is an immune system disease often unseen to the casual observer but my actions have been very visible. It's not going to be easy as rarely does a moment go by where it doesn't affect my activities, thoughts or mood, however I'm still here, I'm still going, & I will keep going on MS journey, as we all have battles to contend with but allowing in friends & family to understand & support means you won't fight alone.
I'm an not the person I was before MS - I am a damn sight stronger.
I have MS, I have attempted to deal with it alone badly for seven years. In December 2015 the temporary blindness & subsequent permanent decreased vision caused by another MS attack of optic neuritis knocked the heck out of me & finally confirmed to me without any doubt I do actually have MS, you can be told things but it takes a lot sometimes to truly believe them, The courage it has taken to accept this new fact of life has been immense.
I have spent ages wallowing & processing this new realisation alone, I shouldn't have done it that way & I apologies to my friends & family for being stubborn & aloof. If people with MS don't understand it, how can I expect people without MS to understand it - without help, it is an immune system disease often unseen to the casual observer but my actions have been very visible. It's not going to be easy as rarely does a moment go by where it doesn't affect my activities, thoughts or mood, however I'm still here, I'm still going, & I will keep going on MS journey, as we all have battles to contend with but allowing in friends & family to understand & support means you won't fight alone.
I'm an not the person I was before MS - I am a damn sight stronger.
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