It's like this: I wake up feeling maybe a bit med-groggy but OK. Get ready, go to work. I do fine until 2 p.m., then my mind takes a nosedive. I go from lucid to fuzzy. I'm a native speaker of English but at this time I feel like I'm not! I try to front-load my day:complex tasks and projects first thing, then easier as the day progresses.
But work is getting more stressful: tasks far less predictable in nature, countless last-minute, end-of-day requests, staff turnover, people jostling for position, etc. I am useless at end of day!
Only a few people in my organization know I have ms. They probably don't understand it either. I don't want anyone else at work to know. I generally perform at a high level when it counts, but...for how long? I also have the misfortune of still having professional ambitions. But I fear they are no longer quite realistic.
My mind is far away, my words are below the ice and I'm standing on top. I briefly see the words I want to say but they sink under dark water and I can't recall them.
But work is getting more stressful: tasks far less predictable in nature, countless last-minute, end-of-day requests, staff turnover, people jostling for position, etc. I am useless at end of day!
Only a few people in my organization know I have ms. They probably don't understand it either. I don't want anyone else at work to know. I generally perform at a high level when it counts, but...for how long? I also have the misfortune of still having professional ambitions. But I fear they are no longer quite realistic.
My mind is far away, my words are below the ice and I'm standing on top. I briefly see the words I want to say but they sink under dark water and I can't recall them.
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