I posted this in the SSID forum but there's so much going on that I wanted to post more generally. I'm usually bad at asking for help but I've known I'm in over my head for a while now and the hits just keep coming. I've been falling, had the worst MS hug I've ever had (was suffocating for days). The new symptoms keep coming (though I haven't had optic neuritis since starting rituximab) but no new active lesions to explain it.
So its infusion month and I received a packet in the mail informing me that I have to complete a full review of my disability. I was approved 6 years ago and wasn't expecting to have to do a full review like this, not to mention being able to do all the packet required. I called for an extension so I have till the 17th of June to complete it.
Anyway, I don't work. I am alone, no real support from family, just a couple good friends that help me out. When I was first diagnosed I had been living abroad was visiting for my best friends wedding and lost my eyesight. I paid for my bills out of pocket because I thought it was the right thing to do.. well.. I put myself in massive debt and went completely broke before insurance kicked in and I was approved for SSI disability. I worked for a state organization prior to that and was 2 coins short of full disability. I barely have enough to get by right now and if I were to lose these benefits I would end up homeless or have to go live with a previously abusive parent.
Frankly I'm terrified. Is a full review normal? Should I be worried that I might lose benefits? Does anyone have any advice?
On top of all this, I've suddenly received letters from the IRS claiming didn't file on some imaginary income that I have no idea what they are talking about. It looks like they are referring to a student loan I used to pay bills but why would the IRS be involved in that when I'm already getting 4 calls a day from the loan people.
I'm at the end of my sanity, the stress is overwhelming. I have no idea how to address the IRS, the loan people. I've been trying to figure out how all this happened and when and what they are talking about. I generally have cognitive functioning problems. I'm not the crazy workaholic multitasker I was 6 years ago. I feel like I'm dropping the ball everywhere and making the situation worse.
I'm in a constant state of panic now and all my attempts to find help in understanding what's happening and how I can make things right are turning up dead ends.
Any info or advice would be so greatly appreciated. Are there any MS resources for help managing finances? I feel like I've spent my 30s trying to juggle bills I can't pay and in at the hospital/doctors office. That's my job, I get that, but I can't continue in this constant state of fear that I will lose everything I have left, go to jail, or something crazy like that.
Thanks in advance,
Nicole
So its infusion month and I received a packet in the mail informing me that I have to complete a full review of my disability. I was approved 6 years ago and wasn't expecting to have to do a full review like this, not to mention being able to do all the packet required. I called for an extension so I have till the 17th of June to complete it.
Anyway, I don't work. I am alone, no real support from family, just a couple good friends that help me out. When I was first diagnosed I had been living abroad was visiting for my best friends wedding and lost my eyesight. I paid for my bills out of pocket because I thought it was the right thing to do.. well.. I put myself in massive debt and went completely broke before insurance kicked in and I was approved for SSI disability. I worked for a state organization prior to that and was 2 coins short of full disability. I barely have enough to get by right now and if I were to lose these benefits I would end up homeless or have to go live with a previously abusive parent.
Frankly I'm terrified. Is a full review normal? Should I be worried that I might lose benefits? Does anyone have any advice?
On top of all this, I've suddenly received letters from the IRS claiming didn't file on some imaginary income that I have no idea what they are talking about. It looks like they are referring to a student loan I used to pay bills but why would the IRS be involved in that when I'm already getting 4 calls a day from the loan people.
I'm at the end of my sanity, the stress is overwhelming. I have no idea how to address the IRS, the loan people. I've been trying to figure out how all this happened and when and what they are talking about. I generally have cognitive functioning problems. I'm not the crazy workaholic multitasker I was 6 years ago. I feel like I'm dropping the ball everywhere and making the situation worse.
I'm in a constant state of panic now and all my attempts to find help in understanding what's happening and how I can make things right are turning up dead ends.
Any info or advice would be so greatly appreciated. Are there any MS resources for help managing finances? I feel like I've spent my 30s trying to juggle bills I can't pay and in at the hospital/doctors office. That's my job, I get that, but I can't continue in this constant state of fear that I will lose everything I have left, go to jail, or something crazy like that.
Thanks in advance,
Nicole
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