Hi all,
I have SPMS with cognitive loss and all kinds of physical stuff, crippling fatigue, difficulty walking, numb hands, etc., etc. I get along well enough... except when I have to deal with people. Darn people.
Since last summer I've had easy rage attacks at people. Yes, there was usually an underlying reason, but never before would I get angry or rage over such things. I was always nice and understanding.
Now, one wrong move and KABOOM, I'm off. There's a clear, constant pattern emerging of things setting me off, and I am not enjoying being a jerk. It doesn't feel good.
I had been on Zoloft for years, with great success, but last Spring I had to wean off of it because it was flipping me to the dark side, giving me horrible depression. The doctor tried a few other AD's on me but all I got was increased fatigue, vertigo, zombie-state, etc. So, we decided to go AD free. And I was going along fine for quite a while, but as my cognitive impairment increased some last year, my inability to cope with the world around me increased.
I have uncharacteristically gone nuts on a brother-in-law (for horrible things he said, things I should have and previously would have just accepted as things he says), husband, store clerks, vet techs for my pets, you name them, I've hit them.
I'm tired of going off and just want to feel peaceful and accepting again. Since the experiments with AD's did not work, I'm wondering if a small dose of Ativan might keep me under control.
Looking for others with this experience.
Thanks!
I have SPMS with cognitive loss and all kinds of physical stuff, crippling fatigue, difficulty walking, numb hands, etc., etc. I get along well enough... except when I have to deal with people. Darn people.
Since last summer I've had easy rage attacks at people. Yes, there was usually an underlying reason, but never before would I get angry or rage over such things. I was always nice and understanding.
Now, one wrong move and KABOOM, I'm off. There's a clear, constant pattern emerging of things setting me off, and I am not enjoying being a jerk. It doesn't feel good.
I had been on Zoloft for years, with great success, but last Spring I had to wean off of it because it was flipping me to the dark side, giving me horrible depression. The doctor tried a few other AD's on me but all I got was increased fatigue, vertigo, zombie-state, etc. So, we decided to go AD free. And I was going along fine for quite a while, but as my cognitive impairment increased some last year, my inability to cope with the world around me increased.
I have uncharacteristically gone nuts on a brother-in-law (for horrible things he said, things I should have and previously would have just accepted as things he says), husband, store clerks, vet techs for my pets, you name them, I've hit them.
I'm tired of going off and just want to feel peaceful and accepting again. Since the experiments with AD's did not work, I'm wondering if a small dose of Ativan might keep me under control.
Looking for others with this experience.
Thanks!
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