It is strange I know but I hope that someone can relate... I think all the time about if I could handle a relapse. I was originally diagnosed when I was 15 (15 years ago next week). My first relapse (leg numbness and tingling) which brought on my diagnosis and then a second relapse (optic neuritis) about 4 years ago. I have had a lot of time between relapses and have fully recovered. I have a pretty healthy lifestyle only issues are due to med side effects . Which most people would think that is amazing! And so do I... But I constantly question can I really handle a relapse. It is almost as if I feel like a am not able to relate to everyone else with MS. I feel like my MS is not as bad so I don't have anything to compare to. Also everything that changes or is happening to my body I don't know if it is MS related or not. I just think... is this tingling in my hand because I am having a relapse or just because I sat all day at the computer and have a over used my hands.
I am not sure if is fear or anxiety but I constantly think... could I survive on my own if I had a relapse. Can I handle the problems that I see with people on the street or the internet or papers or tv or movies. I guess that I want to know how it feels to have relapse. I know that is really bad and I should never hope for that. I am sure I will regret these thoughts later on in life when I do have serious problems.
Can any one relate to this?
I am not sure if is fear or anxiety but I constantly think... could I survive on my own if I had a relapse. Can I handle the problems that I see with people on the street or the internet or papers or tv or movies. I guess that I want to know how it feels to have relapse. I know that is really bad and I should never hope for that. I am sure I will regret these thoughts later on in life when I do have serious problems.
Can any one relate to this?
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